++the love is..

i travelled from my house in bandar sri d4mansara to my office in bandar d4mansara perdana everyday,
and i have to pass by the tol penchala : pergi dan balik.
and do you know which lane is the longest?
yup! the touch n go lane. so, dont bother pakai touch n go la, menglambatkan sahajos.

well, that's not the question of the day.
i chat with a fren just now, and had this question in my mind,
quotation said: " love is not about finding someone yu can live with, but finding someone yu cant live without"
but then a man once spoke:
"love is not about how you're not gonna live without her/him, but, love is about how you're gonna live with her/him"

that made me wonder. which one hah?

currently listening to: nickelback - far away
currently feeling: i love youuuu.. i have loved you all alonggggg~
my lunch: not yet.

++the one with the high-hat [berlagaksahaje]

example: pda
there are 2 categories of people;
one who really obsessed and use the pdas. this person will know all he/she needs to know about the gadget, the criterias, the markets, the ups/downs, the technologies, almost everything, with/without telling other people.
the other one is the one who stalk all about it but know nothing. and this one person, she/he will extrovertly jungling around telling people of how much she/he knews about it, as if, she/he knew everything. padahal dia takde pon mendalah tuh. sakit tau!! eee menyampah! berlagak lebey! moerkh!~

this is an example of something else, but, i dunwan tell wat it is. perhaps you can guess.

currently listening to: the all american rejects - move along
currently feeling: fatty:D, ouh, another 3 days to go :(
lunch: nasi+dagingkicap+bendiguring+udangsambal+greentea tin pepel. addicted.

++the one that scares me..

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ngantoks gilers.
dem dem dem gunadem.

i am practically defisit, i owe imah 230.70, i owe o'a the kelantan's tix and movie tix and bunch meals tips.
i owe kaklong 500. i owe daddy 3400. do i have to mention my credit on my HSBC?

and last thursday, while surviving my last few days before the salary coming in, i lost my last 50 ringgit notes given by yance. and after that, i became a total parasit to him. sorry mister.

my prior notice [and some close-frens] was: i am not scared of defisit. i used to live with it. that made me dont bother, made me less ignored. i used to live with the situation during my UK-time, and im not scared of owing my besprens, that's what made me today. damn! lucky i have those kayaraya frens :D

god, i'm no longer scared of defisit, but, ofkos i'm scared of being me unscared of defisit.

i am now, this moment, this very second, ber-ikrar, tidak akan membiarkan diri ini berhutangi kawan2 lagi. amin. ya rabbal alamin.

currently listening to: jason lo - operator, the line is dead !~
currently feeling: scared.

++the choices i wont choose

if yu were to choose between these:

1. a phonecall from a bestfren, crying, craving for a fren to hear.
2. a buzz buzz non-stop typing on a chatting-window on the pc, from someone very dear. say, someone who yu very long to talk with. [e.g: boipren yg berada di luar negara yg hanye online seminggu sekali?]
3. a less than a meter away colleages-gathering, gossipping about boss or anyone in the office. [which is obviously in a slow-tone voice, yg you cant hear from your desk]

and a reminder: all those 3 cases need a single attention. which will you choose?

currently listening to: josie & the pussycats - you dont see me
currently feeling: angry. i hate it when people say im stupid.

++the one that's been called a bitch.

Melangkah mengharapkan
Hadir dirimu
Ku genggam segala memori
Kita dewasa bersama
Menuju satu cita
Walau jalan berbeza

Kasihku sinar tanpa cinta
Sinarnya tanpa asmara
Dengarilah hatiku rindu
Kasihku mekar tak berbunga
Mekarnya di dalam jiwa
Biarkanlah, biarkan saja
'Kasihku sinar'

Andai kau ada disini
Terukirlah senyuman
Tersingkir rasa sepi
Andai kau pergi dari sisi
Jangan disingkir
Diriku dari mimpimu

currently listening to: amy mastura - kasihku sinar
currently feeling: sleepy hungry tiring, 3 in 1.

++the one with the engineering girls..

whats the difference between engineering student and business management students? sorry if i speak very randomly, as an overall saying kot. so, dont get pissed or anywhat. this is somewhat very very majority, unapplied to everyone pon kan. berdasarkan kawan2 terdekat aje.

my colleage, was happily agreed when her boss tell them [the engineers-motorola penang] to wear uniforms to go to work. hiphip! she exclaimed! no more sitting infront of wardrobe lazily picking the rite clothes of the day, no more ironing, no more headaches of not enuff selection wateva wateva.

during her uniten days, she wears anything she wears in the room to class, to discussion, to eat, to faculty anythinglah. on a normal case, she only change her shortpant to longpant. and the same japanese sandal to everywhere, dun care lah got heels or not, got color or not. sempoi.

and then, when she has to be transferred to motorola cyberjaya, where theres no uniform, her nitemare came along.. tagged along with non-engineering-people makes her femininely changed. her colleage is this type of every attire have their own matched-earrings and sandals. not all laa, basically gitugitu la. walking along with her colleage made her look more or less like a filipino maid. :)) [too much kah kenyataan inih? :D]
so then she changed, bit by bit. starting to wear femininely, no more jeans and plain tshirt. now, with colourful shirt. tu pon dia siap pilih those yg tayah iron ones. tapi baju yg more femininelah.
but ofkos, no make up nor jewellery [plus earrings].

thats the last thing we ever sacrified: waking up an hour earlier for making up. untuk menjangokkan diri. huhu tamo tamo. 15mins before punch-time is more than appropriate. haha. kalo bley nak je gi keje pakai kaftan tuh.

thats basically it.
if you were once an engineering student, than, change course to business management, you can differentiate even more. :-"

anyways, ramai je bebudak engine yg lagi power menjangok skang nih.

so, guys, dont nagged about being an engineer's bf lah. we are beautiful inside yu know.
i have this fren of mine complaining of how her gf's very unattractive appearance. eh how yu at first fall in love with her, if, until now you want to compare2 that hah? eyy, lelaki, kalo dah tanak, mata gf dia terlalu besar pon bley jadik alasan. damn!

currently listening to: dygta - tak bisa memiliki
currently feeling: demam.

++the 16 more days to go..

one sunday morning while pumping the petrol at esso near my house, a young guy stand still in front of me.
i was like, apekehal mamat ni. then after a long stares, and i looked at his nametag, barulah realised, he's my student. aiyoo~

atfirst: wutthe??
2nd glance: eh yu student i kan????? omigod..
he: ya la miss..
me: aiyo aiyo, yu keje sini kah? parttime eh?
he: ye lah miss, yuran mahal sgt kot.. huhuuu..
me: huhukkk.. dah lame ke keje sini?
he: ade dekat sebulan dah..
me: oo..oo.. duduk berdekatan kah?
he: dedekat rumah miss laa.. rumah miss kat jalan ma****ni kan? selalu nampak miss lalu lalu tuh..
me: damn!~

i soooooo wanted to pindah! gosh! ape agaknye kekantoian yg sudah dinampaki olih studentkuh. adula~

and anyways, my thesis been published in an antenna magazine in UK. see see: [berlagak terlampau, walaupon takdelaa mende sgt pon]

Jack L. Stone to me

Hello Has1fah:
Your Prof. David Jefferies sent us your email inquiry about the article you participated in with him recently.

[...]I've run thru your website, and wondering if the 'Loop Antenna Investigations' has been published in the www.antennex.com or not. I would help in providing any datas that i've collected if you should require.[...]

Indeed, it was published and I'm setting you up with a free login to all of the reading rooms, so you can see your work and all other content too.

Your login is:
UN: has1fah@gmail.com
PW: ASK ME

The specific article URL is:
http://www.antennex.com/archive8/Feb06/Feb406/intromlg.htm

Good luck on your new career!

(^_^)
Happy trails,
Jack L. Stone

... http://www.antennex.com

antenneX Online Magazine
currently listening to: sheila on 7 - tunjuk satu bintang
currently feeling: sleepy sahngat.

++the girls most normal discussion at mamaks..

one day while chatting over nasi lemak at my house's mamak, miss-I, [one of us], said that she is setting year 2007 as a year to get married. that's her target of life. but, she dont have any candidates [read: kekasih mahupon teman lelaki mahupon kawan lelaki]. bearing that 2007 is so near, she urge us to find her suitable candidates.
another us, miss-S, then said how would you target such things, if yu dont have any candidates? you would probably ending up choosing the wrong person, or, worst, tangkap muat aje. miss-S used to be a life-with-target person that once upon a time, she kompol2 a big amount of money to get married at certain period, but then, her love-life turned disaster and she's frustrated and then she dont biliv in setting up a target to end up her status.

then, in the car, we [me and miss-I] discussed. of how strong that miss-S became now. of how she's now determined with her worklife that one day she'll become someone lah kot in her industry. of how both of us, [me and miss-I] work for fun aje.

eh tak tak, i dun want to talk about miss-S.
its the conversation between us at mamak stall tuh that i want to talk.
of how am i gonna end up.
miss-S said: we have to find someone who loves us, not someone who we love.. we have to be fren with him and then we can share our life with him.. not by setting up a target.
miss-I said: kalo semorang nak org yg sayang kite, bukan yg kite sayang dia, semorang pon tak kawen la nanti.. and whats wrong with setting up a target?
miss-S said: if yu set up a target, takot end up kite nanti main tangkap muat aje nanti.
i said: kalo dah jodoh kite ngan org yg kite tangkap muatkan tuh, ape salahnye, mbe he's the right person? mbe love after marriage is our destiny?
miss-S said: and what if there's no love after marriage?
we said: then, he's not our jodoh. ahahaha. senangnye bercakap.

this kind of conversation, i know, been passing thru all girls my age. the bachelor one.
i cant help feeling the same as miss-I felt, feeling scared. but, what to do, life is life. we never know what we'll get. not until we eventually setting the 'the date'.
but, being someone like miss-S, who waits for a true lover that will become our fren first, then, baru bley kawen same dia, is a danger limit. i dont think thats appropriate.
spread your wings, and prepare to fly.. prepare to fly..
i love zsa zsa zsu feeling.
thank you.

currently listening to: 3rd eye bling - hows it gonna be
currently feeling: scared.

++the before final dest 3

alamak. i promise to shut up till end of march but i cant resist talking la plak.
an EPL lounge, a new one, being opened near to my office [d4mansara perdana], and situated in front of my everyday-wajib-park-situ 'hot-spot'. a legal one. 5ringgit a day parking fee.
yesterday, afterwork, around 7pm, when i ran down inside my car, due to the raining condition [takdela lebat mana pon], i didnt notice a familia-face inside the EPL lounge, waiting for the rain to stop. i dont give a damn if that famila-face has nothing to do with me, but, his car- a merc, is blocking mine. illegally.
tried being supermacho&considerable, i swerved lah my car ituh, kot-kot la muat masok celah depan, [depan tuh ade van bagak], but to no avail.
then, baru i noticed few waiters near my car dok lambai2 ckp owner merc tuh tgh berchenta-chenta di dlm EPL cafe. aiyoo matchaa, im in hurry la deyy. then, the that-famila-face kuar from the EPL cafe and duduk sahaje di tepi itu menunngu hujan benti turun. samel melayan aweknye. maka, amarahlah daku!~
HONNN!~ and the familia-face look at me with you-know-that-sympathy-plus-cute-face itu memberikan wajah: " hujan la, saye takot kene hujan"..
aiyooo.. sebbaik ko comel, kottak, dah lame aku maki.
and i replied with this face: " table table saye nak cepat"
hehu, dgn menangisnya the guy run to his car and i kenyit mata to him.
sorila bai, takkesahlah ko ashraf sinclair ke adam-quickie ke, i have a date la. nak cepat.

wah, besnye ofis di kelilingi celebriti.
nantikan kewujudanku didlm metrowealth upcoming movie. [sbg org yg lalulalang]
boahahhahahahhahahhaha~

currently listening to: roxette - shes so vulnerable
currently feeling: horny. uih? =)))))) [sbb bace blog jaja psl horny&period :-s]

++the nothing

wake me up when march ends.

[p/s i am officially abominate with once-dealova. giler saiko ah. jgn nyanyi lagu ituh plis!~]

++the 2nd karma

i need a 3 bears hug!~
oa eja dan leli [3-3 kering kontang]

currently listening to: FATA - autumn's monologue
currently feeling: down