++the 'anuar zain - perpisahan'

i somehow felt that this song is so-ohhh meaningful.
ade siape ade lagu anuar zain - perpisahan? email to me, tengs !~

and yupp. am looking forward to watch this movie 'cinta'. typical me.

and here i would like to express the lyrics~

ku mengerti.. perpisahan ini..
bukan kerana kau membenci
tapi kasih yang pernah ku beri
tiada lagi bersama

sering kala aku terlihatkanmu
impian nan indah bersulam bahagia

ku harungi hari demi hari
bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali
tapi hati masih tak terima
ditinggalkan sengsara

keraguan ini.. bukanlah padamu
perasaan hati masih rindu
kekakalutan ini hanyalah untukku
tercari cari bayanganmu

tak sanggup aku kehilangan... mu
kehilanganmu..

keraguan ini .. bukanlah padamu
masih tercari-cari bayanganmu
tak sanggup aku kehilanganmu...

currently listening to:anuar zain - perpisahan
currently feeling:hurt by own colleage.
i wanna be:rich to open my own bakery cum cafe!!!

++the memememe

Doing meme is the fastest way of updating. not much of into writing time. I was blogsurfing when I came to this meme by **** [[aku tak engat blog sape sebab aku dah siap2 paste b4 pegi lunch! omaigodness, i am that senile!]]

My earliest memory is..
when in primary school, this budak 'shamsulbahrin' ter-pelok myself [which is takdelah pelok pon, nak dekat terpelok je] semase kami main hantu2 [yg melompat2 tuh], and everybody kept on teasing me with that. and hell! i was emotionally annoyed by that rumours that time, that i declared war dgn dia. bodhoe ni bodhoe ni.

At high school I...was an AJK senaman hmmkay! kohkohkoh. the duty was to stand on a bench infront of an assembly and yooo~ have to do senamanrobik with songs that we chose. heh, go figure that size different: between me during high-school *vs* me now!

My first relationship was...
not a real one. It was all a hoax. and i dunno if i can call that was a relationship. semuanye setset seminggu dua punye barang. hoh.

I wish i'd never worn...the pink polkadot handbag. *u know which*

My mother told me...that she cant wait to see my future house with husband. she said: mesti besepah2 because i am the laziest one at my home. bhahhhhh!
[which i slambe-ly jawab: takpe, orang amek pembanturumah :-"]. uwaa, aku mmg selalu menderhaka :((. matihlah sayah.

I wish I had...
longer weekends than weekdays. 5days weeknd, 2 days work : watabot that? hehe. or, if it sounds stupid, mbe we can have a 72-hours-2days weekends and 12hours-5days workdays. watabotdet? kohkohkoh.

My most humiliating moment was...when i tot red-devil is liverpool-fan. bodhoe ni bodhoe niiiiiiiiiiiii. liverpool is red whot :-"
**hiphip liverpool, lasnite won 3-0** muah gerard:*

At home I cook...
almost every weekend. power tak? hehehe. masak megi is considered cooking what :-"

My last meal would be...apekah aku mcm tak paham soalan ni ek. hnm, skipped.

I'm very bad at...lying lah. and singing. and in memorizing. duhh

When I was a child...I really think that we can get pregnant by sleeping next to any man. now that i am grown up, kohkohkoh aku rase aku sgt bodoh lah dulu2.

The book that changed my life is...urgh. no books ever changed me. buku text add maths?

It's not fashionable, but I love...my black cuffed bangle zura gave. wears like everyday everywhere.
my stacks of white/cream color scarfs, pon wears like everyday and everywear. i felt bruised in other color especially blue scarf.
my flowery-disney-shirt, satu2nye shirt yg still muat dan tidak sendat bagaikan nangke busuk. [tu pon sebab beli size L, and imah&naiza adalah sgt tekejut kerana selame nih aku ske beli baju kekecik ;))]

Friends say I am...Cheerful. Happy. Funny. Kooky. Depressed. Creative. Musical. jukebox?. Blur. Childish. Clumsy. Organized. Friendly. Quiet. Noisy. Silly. All kinds of adjectives you can think of.

If only I could...own my bakery cum cafe. and not worried about money at all.

The last big belly laugh I had was...when remembering how i end up being called 'lalat' by a jongang-atuk-busuk at a bus-stop at putrajaya , after running away from that atuk's car. konon2 nak lari dan nak amek cab lah kunun, only to find out i left only RM2. bodoe betul gaji tak masuk2.. [i wear a big sunglass lah, tu pasal macam 'lalat']

What I don't find amusing is...making fun of people. When you really actually care about them. WTF?!

I'm always being asked...
for now ah?
1.woi, apsal ko maken tembam ni??
2.woi, apsal ko maken gemok ni??
3.woi, apsal ko maken sihat ni??
damn the buffet.

If I wasn't me...i wasnt you either lah.

At the moment I'm listening to...billy talent - surrender. bleargh, pengaruh rakan sebaye.

My favourite work of art is...all written by jason wade or chris martin or billyjoe or ariel bley? ;))
eh, the question is 'is'.. so it would be jasonwade-yu belong to me. bley?

If I were a car I'd be...
mmm, whtaeva car takuya kimura's driving. whoOttttt. its getting hawt in here weyyy =p~

I often wonder...what duyu really want from me.

..and here, i tag all the names on the left side of the page.

currently listening to: billy talent - surrender
currently feeling ill
i wanna be in terengganu lah.

++the salam aidilfithri

dengan luhur hati nya saye dgn ini menyusun 10 jari jemari yg comel nih, mohon maaf, jike terdapat kesalahan tatabahasa mahupon tatasusila, tersilap makan mahupon sengaja termakan, terkasar mahupon terlembut sgt :-j ewwww, terngumpat mahupon ter'laser', tersinggung manemane pihak, ter'emo' lelebey membuatkan anda mual, atau apepelah kawasan yg sekitarnye lah. ampon ye kawan kawan. sedangkan lidah saye nih dah byk kali gile tergigit sendiri, masakan kite manusia biase. :-j ehwah :-j. [hutang nasi ayam tak kire dlm pengamponan yeh encik laily [-x ]
dengan ucapan: buat open house jgnlah lupe jempot saye yeh :-"
dan tak lupe juwe, kirim salam lah dekat sedare2 yg hemsem tuh yeh. *blushes*

oh ye, saye dan adik saye akan polang behariraye pade jumaat malam yg kelam, atau, jike saye berat montot, saye polang disebelah pagi nan merah esoknye tuh, tgklah mane2 yg seswai. make, jempotlah bertandang ke kg pasir ambor nan permai dan byk taik lembu powerut tuh. dun segan segan yeh. especeli org2 kualap1lah seantaro blogworld sekalian, jemput dtg yeh!~

akhirkate, marilah mentuju kegemokan abadi di musim raye nanti!~ world!
saye dediket lagu raye yg saye paling top dlm winamp list saye nih kpd semua anda! jempot nyanyi part rem secare rempit beramai2.

Raihan Lebaran Ini
Mendayu suara meniti angkasa
Alunan takbir mengulit pagi
Insan tersenyum tanda gembira
Lebaran mulia menjelma lagi, kali ini

Di hari lebaran mulia ini
Jangan pula membuat dosa
Begitulah hakikatnya hari raya
Bergembira tanpa melupakannya, Allah Yang Esa

Indah suasana dalam senyuman
Seluruh alam turut raikan
Mengucapkan syukur pada Tuhan
Atas nikmat yang datang, limpahannya woo..oh..

Ikhlaskan hati mohon kemaafan
Leburlah dosa di tapak tangan
Lupakan segala silap dan salah
Insan bersatu membina ummah uh.. uh..
currently listening to: raihan - lebaran ini
currently loving atuk
i wanna sleep lah, ngantuk begulung2.

++the patient

embun di pagi buta
menebarkan bau asa
detik demi detik ku hitung
inikah saat ku pergi

oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

aku tak mudah mencintai
aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
aku tak mudah mengatakan
aku jatuh cinta

senandungku hanya untuk cinta
tirakatku hanya untuk engkau
tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta
sampai ku menutup mata
cintaku sampai ku menutup mata

oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

currently listening to: acha septriasa - sampai menutup mata
currently feeling insane, dhahhh???
i wanna kiss tomcruise lah

++the brain

"if u love somebody
could we be this strong
i will fight to win
our love will conquer all
wouldn't reach my love
even just one night
our love will stay in my heart
my heart"

eh. lagu teda kenemene.

lasnite we discussed. of how we at lower form [Form 1 contohnya], seeing modern maths as that difficult, but when we were at upper form [F4 contohnya], we were being snob of knowing that the modern maths itu was very-very easy, compared to our add-maths. and so does to other subjects lah.
and then we concluded, that is because our brain was developing. and it developed exponentially with time at that time.

now at my 25, i still felt that electric circuit is as difficult as it was in my 1st year electrical engineering [erm, 7 years back :-??].
so, does that means my brain didnot/stillnot developing eversince uni-age??
ohmaigod! or maybe it is developing, but very very slowly, i think bukan takat tidak exponential, adalah mungkin juge tidak bekadar lurus juga. dia mcm alala nak mendatar.

ke caner?

30mins ago, in a phone-conversation with mrs.somebody, she mentioned about me having a master degree, and why cant me judge something with that level of education.
and i said, level of education didnot represent of how one thinking, or being spammed!
tipu tetap tipu, i think, when my brain is not good at lying, my brain is also not good of rejecting lies from liars. most liars are very good in judging another liars ek?

owh, i forgot, bukankah hidup kita akhirnya harus bahagia?

my new carkeys keychain :-"


currently listening to: flipside - someday
currently feeling weird.

++the one who i wanna have

You said that I was naive,
And I thought that I was strong.
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."
Oh but now I know that I was wrong, 'cuz I missed you.

You said, "I caught you 'cuz I want you and one day I'll let you go."
You try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cuz you know you're just so scared to lose.
And you say, "Stay."



once again, i miss you.
huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

++the 7th skies ?

b4 this tatau pon kewujudan lagu ni hehe, tapi, lepas dgr velvet nanyi dlm konsert2, terase bes plak.. tapi, mase velvet nyanyi takde part lelaki tuh, part tuh yg buat dia bes tu kot ke? ntah.. so, meh tgk version sharifah zarina sbb ade part lelaki, silekan tgk..


dan ni link ni ble tgk vclip tu secare lagi bes kot, dan ade byk vclip lain besbes kot.
http://www.mohdimran.com/flash_video/popup_player.php?video_selection=45

Langit Ke Tujuh
By Sharifah Zarina
Dulu kau pernah berkata
Andai kata kita bercinta
Akan kau bina mahligai
Yang terapung di langit ketujuh
Sememangnya seakan khayalan belaka
Aku tak percaya

Kata-katamu hanya mimpi
Di siang hari kemarau panjang
Berpanas jua berteduh tidak
Hati kecil tak memahami
Mahligai itu ada di syurga
Terangilah mata hati
Agar dapatku mengerti
Hoooo?hoooooo

*Ulang semula dari awal
lelaki tu pon cakap:
Kata-kataku bukan mimpi
Di siang hari kemarau panjang
Berpanas tidak berteduh jua.

ps: sesape nak mp3 langit ke tujuh versi velvet power, sile msg me. seriyes sukela suara dia. afundi velvet :D
ps2: uwaaaaa kalah betting :(( damn lah apsal japan kalah :((
currently listening to: velvet - langit ke tujuh
currently feeling: tabest

++the konsert2 - af4

woups.. guek pon tatau cemane guek bley terjebak ke kancah ini.
hehehh.. 4 ticket passes were for mom, kaklong, myself and my brother. hehehe. afundi videl !!!~
pic1: me and kaklong
pic2: 4u2c ialah artis jempotan wow, guek ssuke :D.. azam, lanz, yanz, joe. [malang, adik &rinz takdok huhukkkk. ac pon takde.]
pic3: the free passes.




and.. erk, tetibe menjadi hiba menterdengarkan lagu fran- kerna terpaksa ek. :(

Kerna terpaksa aku melangkah pergi
Kerna terpaksa ku turut kata hati
Gementar tibuhku dengan keputusan ini
Biarpun pedih ku teruskan jua

Di antara kita mengapa ada dia
Biarpun hanya kawan biasa
Tapi ku rasa berlainan caranya
Hingga mencakar perasaanku
Terpaksaku
Terpaksaku membuat pilihan
Mengundurkan diri untuk kebahagiaanmu

Kerna terpaksa aku rela sendiri
Kerna terpaksa lalu aku menangis
Tertutup hatiku untuk bercinta lagi
Tidak ku tahu bila kan terbuka

Di antara kita mengapa ada dia
Biarpun hanya kawan biasa
Tapi ku rasa berlainan caranya
Hingga mencakar perasaanku
Andainya ku melakukan begitu
Bagaimanakah perasaanmu
Terpaksaku
Terpaksaku membuat pilihan
Mengundurkan diri untuk kebahagiaanmu

currently listening to: kerna terpaksa? :(
currently feeling: pain.

++the typical me

Mungkin diriku harus begini
Selamanya... darimu
Atau ku harus mengakhiri cinta ini
Kepadamu...

Kini cintaku telah kaubagi
Tak sanggup kuhadapi semua ini

Reff :
Aku tak biasa
Bila tiada kau disisiku
Aku tak biasa
Bila ku tak mendengar suaramu
Aku tak biasa
Bila tak memeluk dirimu
Aku tak biasa
Bila kutidur tanpa belaianmu
Aku tak biasa
Aku tak biasa

Kucoba untuk terus berpaling dari hatimu
Namun tak bisa
Bayangan itu terus mengganggu dalam tidurku
Kumenangis...

Kini cintaku telah kau bagi
Tak sanggup kuhadapi semua ini

currently listening to: alda - aku tak biasa
currently feeling: aiyoooooooooooo. sakit lah.

++the unknown resolution. :-"

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY
to my friend in d4mansara, my friend in KL, my friend in PJ, my friend in Shah Alam, my friend in negeri9, my friend in Bangi, my friend in Sabah, my friend in Malaysia, my friend in guildford, my friend in UK, my friend in US, my friend in Japan, my friend in Canada, my friend in indonesia, my friend in spore, my friend from T.B.S, my 90 friends from ssp kl, my older friends, my younger friends, my uniMalaya friend, my uni Surr3y friends, my boyfriend.

I wish for world peace, that no one dare not being like martha [pompuan dlm desperate housewife], yg suke memporakperandakan kehidupan org lain. lets be friend, and say no to world-war.
i love you all.

bilekejadah plak harinih frensep day?? apeke gile aku ni??:
i got an email, from a fren, a forwarded one yups, cerita tentang wanita bertudung yg berpakaian seksi, ketat, dan adakalanya terbukabuki, dan *blushes* saye rase insaf dan berkata kpd yance:
"mulai hari ini, saye tidak akan lagi bepakaian kecik"
"ni baju awak nih bukan kecik ker?" [sambil mentarik2 t-sert kuning itu]
bajukah yg sudah mengecil, atau akukah yg maken menglemak? :-s
kawan2ku sekalian [terutamanya imah, oa, naiza, owwe!, sue],
marilah kite polang ke pangkal jalan. usah lagi bermimpi membeli gaps-kid.
[*tahan napas*, saye pasti tidak berjaya :((, sbb saye bernapsuh tinggi tehadap pakaian kecil :D]

inih lagu yg kucari dr bulan 2. mahukan mp3nya? buzz me.
dewilestari - pulang
Tuhanku
ku ingin bercerita
ku tunduk bersujud
ku mulai berdoa

lelahnya jiwaku
beratnya langkahku

Tuhanku
ku rindu tawaku yang dulu
kejujuran kebenaran yang dulu ku tahu
ke mana semua
sejauh itukah
ku sesal sudah

peluklah semua tanyaku
jawablah dengan cara Mu

Tuhanku
ku ingin berkelana
kembali mencari jalan ke rumah
bukan di sini tempat ku
bukan mereka yang ku cinta

hari ini
ku mengenali
arti keberanian
yang menerbangkanku
di atas semua derita
dan apa kabarnya

usai semua sandiwara
cukup ku berpura pura
sejujurnya
hanya dia yang ku cinta
ke hatinya aku ingin pulang

currently listening to: dewi lestari - pulang [9 naga OST]
currently feeling: bridled (:

++the emotional love song.

jangan sakiti ku lagi
mungkin aku bisa pergii..
pergi untuk selamanya..
dan mungkin takkan kembali.

yang from santa clara california tuh : "hi!" *:D*

currently listening to: dewa - emotional love song
currently feeling: down.
tanak lunch ngan ofismates!! :(( nak lunch ngan orlen :((

++the one that's been called a bitch.

Melangkah mengharapkan
Hadir dirimu
Ku genggam segala memori
Kita dewasa bersama
Menuju satu cita
Walau jalan berbeza

Kasihku sinar tanpa cinta
Sinarnya tanpa asmara
Dengarilah hatiku rindu
Kasihku mekar tak berbunga
Mekarnya di dalam jiwa
Biarkanlah, biarkan saja
'Kasihku sinar'

Andai kau ada disini
Terukirlah senyuman
Tersingkir rasa sepi
Andai kau pergi dari sisi
Jangan disingkir
Diriku dari mimpimu

currently listening to: amy mastura - kasihku sinar
currently feeling: sleepy hungry tiring, 3 in 1.

++the unexistance day

Will you be my Valentine? If I'm a world away?
Apologies are breaking me.
The constants aren't so constant anymore.

The constants aren't so constant anymore.

Happy Valentine y'all!~
coz i dont have one.:(

++the one whose mine

I can't find a reason to let go
Even though you've found a new love
And she's what your dreams are made of
I can find a reason to hang on
What went wrong can be forgiven
Without you it ain't worth livin' alone
Sometimes I wake up crying at night
And sometimes I scream out your name
What right does she have to take you away
When for so long you were mine
I took out all the pictures of
Our wedding day
It was a time of love and laughter
Happy ever after
But even those old pictures have
Begun to fade
Please tell me she's not real
And that you're really coming home to stay
Sometimes I wake up crying at night
And sometimes I scream out your name
What right does she have to take your heart away
When for so long you were mine
I can give you two good reasons
To show you love's not blind
He's two and she's four and you know
They adore you
So how can I tell them you've changed
Your mind
Sometimes I wake up crying at night
And sometimes I scream out your name
What right does she have to take your heart away
When for so long you were mine

I remember...... when you were mine

currently listening to: dixie chicks - you were mine [sing back by avril]
currently feeling: unlucky.

++the thought that only me heard..

You say I only hear what I want to
You say I talk so all the time so.

And I thought what I felt was simple,
and I thought that I don't belong,
and now that I am leaving,
now I know that I did something wrong 'cuz I missed you.
Yeah, I missed you.

And you say I only hear what I want to:
I don't listen hard,
I don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
or to anyone, anywhere,
I don't understand if you really care,
I'm only hearing negative: no, no, no (bad)

And so I, I turned the radio on, I turned the radio up
and this woman was singin' my song:
the lover's in love and the other's run away,
the lover is cryin' 'cuz the other won't stay.

Some of us hover when we weep for the other who was
dieing since the day they were born.
Well, this is not that:
I think that I'm throwing, but I'm thrown.

And I thought I'd live forever, but now I'm not so sure.
You try to tell me that I'm clever,
but that won't take my anyhow, or anywhere with you.

You said that I was naive,
And I thought that I was strong.
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."
Oh but now I know that I was wrong, 'cuz I missed you.

You said, "I caught you 'cuz I want you and one day I'll let you go."
You try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cuz you know you're just so scared to lose.
And you say, "Stay."

You say I only hear what I want to.

lisa loeb - stay

++the promises i kept, never did you.

Ketika pertama kujumpa denganmu
Bukankah pernah kutanyakan padamu kasih
Takkan kecewakah kau pada diriku
Takkan menyesalkah kau hidup denganku kasih

Memang kau bukan yang pertama bagiku
Pernah satu hati mengisi hidupku dulu
Dan kini semua kau katakan padaku
Jangan ada dusta di antara kita kasih

Semua terserah padamu aku begini adanya
Kuhormati keputusanmu, apapun yang akan
Kau katakan, sebelum terlanjur kita jauh
Melangkah, kau katakan saja

currently listening to: broery marantika - jangan ada dusta diantara kita

++the hope that falls each day

if yu could only sing this to me...

diriku tak akan berpaling
darimu untuk selamanyaaaa
apapun yg engkau alami
aku pon turut merasai
jangan menangis
jangan bersedih
tak guna menangis
tak guna bersedih kerna hatimu kan terus terhiris
biarkan waktu yg menyembuhkan perasaan...

dan tuhan lebih menyayangi
diri yg slalu mengingati..

airmata yg membasahi
takkan mengulang keadaan
jangan menangis
jangan bersedih

aku mendengarmu
aku memahami
akukan menjadi penghibur hati
mendengarmu
yg setia yg selalu menjagamuuu

song of the moment: arjuna-mendengarmu

++the once written letter.

Can't you see that I wanna be there with open arms.
It's empty tonight and I'm all alone,
Get me through this one.

Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that, I miss you
I miss you so.

I'm writing again, these letters to you,
Aren't much, I know.
But I'm not sleeping and you're not here.
The thought stops my heart.

Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you,
I miss you so.

No more looking, I've found here.
I've gone away.

finch - letters to you

++the one that dreams

mungkinkan bila ku bertanya
pada bintang bintang
dan bila ku mulai merasa
bahasa kesunyian

sadarkah aku yang berjalan
dalam kehampaan
terdiam terpana terbata
semua dalam keraguan

aku dan semua yang terluka
kerana kita...

aku kan menghilang.. dalam gelap malam
lepas ku melayang..
biarlah kubertanya.. pada bintang bintang
tentang arti kita.. dalam mimpi yang sempurna

++the unforgotten memories

Atiek - aku Sayang Padamu

Tahukah engkau kekasih
Apa yang selalu aku rasakan
Di saat-saat aku sedang sendiri
Selalu saja ingat padamu

Aku sayang padamu
Aku ingin dirimu
Selalu bersamaku
Aku sayang padamu

Aku sayang aku sayang padamu

Tahukah engkau kekasih
Apa yang selalu aku fikirkan
Di saat-saat aku sedang sendiri
Selalu saja memikirkanmu

Aku sayang padamu wo wow
Aku ingin dirimu
Selalu bersamaku
Aku sayang padamu

Aku sayang aku sayang padamu