++the 'anuar zain - perpisahan'

i somehow felt that this song is so-ohhh meaningful.
ade siape ade lagu anuar zain - perpisahan? email to me, tengs !~

and yupp. am looking forward to watch this movie 'cinta'. typical me.

and here i would like to express the lyrics~

ku mengerti.. perpisahan ini..
bukan kerana kau membenci
tapi kasih yang pernah ku beri
tiada lagi bersama

sering kala aku terlihatkanmu
impian nan indah bersulam bahagia

ku harungi hari demi hari
bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali
tapi hati masih tak terima
ditinggalkan sengsara

keraguan ini.. bukanlah padamu
perasaan hati masih rindu
kekakalutan ini hanyalah untukku
tercari cari bayanganmu

tak sanggup aku kehilangan... mu
kehilanganmu..

keraguan ini .. bukanlah padamu
masih tercari-cari bayanganmu
tak sanggup aku kehilanganmu...

currently listening to:anuar zain - perpisahan
currently feeling:hurt by own colleage.
i wanna be:rich to open my own bakery cum cafe!!!

++the movie

*org gila*
sudah lame saye tidak tgk movie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*kembali normal*
and now, i really missed gsc's smell. u know that smell, the popcorn smell, the pawagam2/3 smell, the seats smell. hehehe. over plak.

currently listening to: snow patrol - chasing cars
currently feeling: ill. demam nih.
i wanna be @ home.

++the public holiday

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh bencinyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
do you know that today is a public holiday, cuti nuzul alquran for selangor.
and do you know that the freaking upper management said that we cannot cuti today????
and do you know that i am being loyal??? and i did dtg kerja????
and do you know that our parking space is empty?? consists only our company's staff's cars???

so, doncha think i have the cruellest management in the world eh?
argh, i hate writing about works or office-related actually. so, soccay, i cant do anything, not that i didnot know the industrial act watsoeva, but then, i'm not ready to look for another job yet.

move.


uwaaaaaaaaaaaaa. i want to go back and hug si pipit and sleep tite.


currently listening to: lifehouse - you & me
currently feeling: sleepy
i wanna go backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!~

pentipu!!
:((

++the 'how to keep my love' movie

la la la la la.
do you know how to cry instantly? i mean, if you really want to cry, but then you cant cry, but you really want to cry to burst all out, what will yu do? watch movies! and here i recommend:
how to keep my love
it helps if you have same life-storyline wiv the movie. achtung!: this is not some kesah hidup yg derita or patah kaki, or buta, or yg sakit2 punyer cerita sedih. this is a total romance sad love story. so, kalo ko tak suke citer cintan, tayah tgk lah.

duhh, i kept telling myself to be tough, but, thing is, i am vulnerable each and every single day. every thing, every single thing i have to ask why. i have to doubt. and every running events made me mesmerizing my old days. and the best part is, i am more than with enuff experience than anyone could foreseen. but, i am weak myself. i hope ramadhan will make me strong.

ps: yesterday yesterday, while having our midnite-chat @nailis, taipan, wiv oa zul n yans, adam of AF2 passed by. and the fact that he didnot bekelip mata menpandangkuh and ignored yans'smile towards him that time, was a bliss after so much hatred of the nite. thanx la weyyy~
ps2: adam hemsem wo!

currently listening to: remioromen - konayuki
currently feeling: phobia
i wanna go home n sleep

++the tabung haji

"and thank u ibu for giving me permission to withdraw money from my tabung haji account to buy the tele."the guy who wrote the sentence [smek], he doesnt know me, me either. i read his blog. eh, i mean, i do know him, in a viewers point of view lah. [mcm aku kenal brandon boyd, tapi, brandon boyd tak kenal aku]
this guy's band [sgt. weener arms] is somewhat quite popular among mmu-ans. kot. [eh, if u dun know this band, u r not an mmu-an?][eh, im not an mmu-an either].
i met him [and other band members] err 2-3 times kot at the hostel, at the disagree-showcase, gig kat bkt jalil.. etc. and yup, i dun think he reckon me, dia salu borak2 ngan yance aje.
ok back, he wrote the sentence, at the end of him thanking all frens & supporters for his band lah. and that is the last sentence lah. "and thank u ibu for giving me permission to withdraw money from my tabung haji account to buy the tele".
i think thats cute. doncha?

i once withdraw my tabung haji account money to pay my car-insurance. thats cruel, and i dare not tell mom. i can hear loudly her screaming before anyone. so, baik diam2 patu nanti masok la sikit2. [which i failed to].

i mean, i dig* bad guys who loves his mom. no matter how rempit or punk he is, if at the end of the day, he went back home and hugged his mom and said i love u mom, owh, that's sweet. person who respect and adore his mom no matter how noisy that mom could be. eh, dun get me wrong, i'm not meaning that smek is a bad guy. adula. abaikan lah.

eh, do you all have tabung haji account?
hehehe.

currently listening to: rie fu - life is like a boat
currently surfing the myspace :D
i wanna go to the magicworld of florida!!!

++the feeds

"No feeds were found. Please verify that the website publishes an RSS feed. "

alangkah bencinyer ku mendapat msg inih.. disini, inginlah saye menseru kawan2 ku supaye check samada your blog publishes an RSS feed. inih ialah kerna lebih senang guek nak track perkembangan blog2 anda semua.
u know, i loike lah this 'bloglines-http://www.bloglines.com/myblogs' thing, it keeps track of my daily-cuppas, simple and easy. it tells me which blog has an update. sonang gilo, takyah susah2 nak bukak satu-satu semua blog utk check updates. tapi, tulah, ade a few blogs yg tidak ade rss feed, maka, this bloglines takble track. contoh blog ialah: blog sue & aida. *take notes!*

*eh, du yu know that last sunday, after the kenduri kahwin fariq&rose, i went tengok wayang snakes on the plane dgn memakai baju kebaya itu? : dan perasaannya ialah, seperti ular2 masuk kedlm kain, dan menangis.
did i not tell u that i am afraid of snakes? or even worms? *lelah*

currently listening to: flipside - someday
currently flipping thru my old photos ;)
i want to go ireland. :D

++the regulars

sedih.
sangatttttt sangatttt sedihhhhhhhhh
sangattttttttttttttttttttttttt!

currently listening to: lifehouse - u n me
currently feeling: sleepy
i wanna eat cheese cake!

to the hand i once hold..

++the moment to remember. [a moment]

read this!!!http://slipperykitchen.blogspot.com/2006/05/moment-to-remember.html
dgn semangat kental yg jitu, i downloaded the movie, dan dgn semangat kental yg jitu juwe, i prepared my bed, my pillows, my sound systems, with macaroni fruit salad and a mug of drinks in my hand, i open the movie lah. only to find out, the subtitle is in french! FRENCH!!! bloodyhell aku tak kire, aku nak tgk gak!! lalu aku tgk gak dlm keadaan tak paham. lantok!

dan adekah anda tahu yg ianya tengah ditayangkan di pawagam berhamperan? demmit!

currently listening to:tonic - if you could only see
currently feeling: tired

++the cruellest thing

DO YOU KNOW WHAT IS THE CRUELLLLLLEST THING happened to me today????
i wrote almost 2 pages [kalo di tampal di microsoft words lah kot], of an entry, just before i accidentally close the window, for god's sake i havent even save as draft atlist once!
:(((((((( menangis bergande, bekos i put my whole excitement in writing that just now, buang masa!
so, whats gonna happened is, i wil shotfomkan isi2 penting tulisan yg telah terpadam tadi okeyyy [okeyyy = alala esqueleto dlm movie 'nacho libre'].

huh.

ok, first: prison break 2nd season sudah berada di pasaran p2p to be dwnload yawll. hehehe. ntah2 korang dah lame dlod dah kan, tapi, mcm ade kemungkinan ia bakal meleret ek. huh.

2nd one: nip tuck.
what if your ex comes to you and says:
"i'm positive, HIV positive"
rileks, not me, obviously, but, its this character in niptuck, dr.christian troy, who is paranoid of having the HIV virus, after his ex-sexmate came to him claiming about having a hiv positive. serve you rite, whoupsie, simpang malaikat 44. nauzubillah.
and i heard nip tuck will be shown in tv8 rite? wow, i wonder how they're gonna cut all the censored patotnyer tuh. :-s muh huh uh huhh. eh, ke kat astro axn ek? ntahlah, mane2 pon, its like showing sex and the city to crowd lah kot ek? hohoho.

3rd one: bilelah diorg nak sambung grey's anatomy tuh nih. :-w

4th one: movie 'click' best. i tot i read mr.and.mrs.imran's blog saying that everybody's crying watching it, and when i did watch the movie, i looked, left-rite, front, and nobody's crying, atlis like me. sob sob, adakah mereka benar2 rempit atau rejim zionis seperti yg diperkatekan olih mrs.imran? :((. i cried like hell :D. especeli the part when adam sandler kept rewind-play-rewind-play the part when his father said 'i love you, son' and he left him crying. huwaaaaaaaaaa, syahduuu, syahdu sesyahdu syahdu nyaaaaa uuu aaa uuu aaaaa. :D over plak. after the movie, i asked beyonce [read:yance] about that, why arent you crying? and he said: sedih mmg sedih, tapi takkanlah nak nangis kot? bah!!! lelaki mmg ngengado taik kudo. moerkhhh!! :D

5th: after the 3rd-failed-dial to my home-line, i called my mom's hp, only to hear her excitedly shouting:
"mak kat cameron nih, la la la !~"
and i was like: " hah buat ape?"
and she said: "sajeje, kiterang busan tatau nak pegi mane, dan ayah ko ckp dia tak pnah dtg cameron lagi"
and i went: jelessssssssssssss, i havent went to cameron of all my lifetime. :(( jeles jeles. jeles banget. jeles jugak sbb ayah slambe ponteng keje hari nih. besnye keje kajaan!!

eh, i am scared of thinking why is my father tetibe terase nak pegi cameron ek? bedua je plak tuh.
*videl is berdoakan kesejahteraan kedua2 org tua kuh, amin*

currently listening to: the brilliant green - i believe
currently feeling: sleepy, walopon adalah tido sekucupnye semalam. ejejejejje:-j

++the piece of article

http://www.utusan.com.my/utusan/content.asp?y=2006&dt=0824&pub=Utusan_Malaysia&sec=Dalam_Negeri&pg=dn_02.htm

i am pissed!

++the problematic me

tolon. saye ade masalah negara.

1. saye tidak suke mendapat emel2 yg fowed2 pasal israel2 tuh seme. maksod saye ialah emel2 yg ade kanak2 mati, kanak2 ditembak sane sini tuh seme lah. geli. tolongkan saye, kenape saye begitu kejam nih?? kalo dapat emel sebedidu, saye akan segere dilit2. jgn haraplah saye nak memfowednye. adula. kejamnye. cemane ni bang berahem? risau plak saye akan ketakperikemanusiaan sayeh inih. :-ss
takpon emel kanak2 atau manusia dalam botol ke, mayat2 mangsa perang ke, apepela yg seangkatannye, yg bisa membuatku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi, tergolek dowk ayam di tangan [jike tgh makan].
kenape saye begidu ek? adekah masalah negare ni saye alami seorang diri atau ade org lain mcm saye ek?
uhuhuhukkk. matihlah sayah.

2. berlainan ceritenye jike emel itu betajok: aksi haflin bersiyum? atau anak2 datuk k di disko ade 2 aweks? atau lagu baru siti dan datuk k? atau apepela yg sensasi2 dashing. uhuhuuu. dgn segera saye mentengoknye 8-x. tanpe disuruh2, bley je click butang fowed. esh esh esh. sunggoh busuk perangai.

3. saye ske bace kesah2 sensasi siti, dan datuk k. :D. dan selepas itu bergelaktawahebbatsambilmenangis dgn teman segossip seperti si leli, atau elly-and-the-gang.
ini contohnye: utusan malaysia semalam: "Siti Nurhaliza yang mendedahkan Datuk K merupakan cinta sejatinya turut menyatakan antara panggilan Datuk K kepada dirinya yang disukai ialah my soulmate."
mcm, yak allahhhhh sitiiiiii, ko tau ke tak ape soulmate tuh ek??? mcm.. takkan tuh pon ko bley suke dowh??
cube kalo datuk k panggil ko 'my infatuation' cemane? ko naik ske tak ek ;;)
ek-eh videL, jgn jage tepi ken orlen. nanti dia rimas. ok okai. saye minte diri.

4. ini ialah masalah paling besar saye. saye tidak suke hasben kpd salah seorang kawan saye. cemane ek? masalah ni besar nih, sbb, saye berase kawan saye ituh pon dah nak jadi mcm hasben dia. dah jadi dah pon, bak kate kwn saye yg satu lagi. uhuks. abaikan.

5. JANGAN! jangan terpedaya dgn sebuah tawaran hebbat dr mane2 kampeni :-" yg menyatakan anda mendapat 7-days VIP pass! JANGAN terpedaya! huh!

currently listening to: utada hikaru - first love
currently feeling: fat, selepas makan nasi lemak.

++the wedding date

my frens are crazy :D
laswik, while helping a good fren from my school finishing her wedding-invitation-cards, we talked about siti nurhaliza getting married and stuffs. then, we talked about our future. her wedding will be on 9th september 2006 [9-9-06], bersempena her betday, same date, coincidently, which falls on saturday. i then told her, lucky you, you can have a dabel parteyyy on your betdey-date later later. and now she urges me, why not you get married on your birthday-date? menarek. together, we all browse thru the calender, searching for my birthday, which will falls into saturday or sunday. jeng jeng jeng. 31st december jatuh kepada: the nearest is this year! [and lastyear]. and the next nearest is on 2012!!! ok this year wont hepen lah kan, too soon to find a husband, tapik, 2012 adelah berumor berape tuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh?????
ho ho ho. perbincangan harus ditamatkan. saye ialah sedih lah.

eh tapi takpe, kite ble nikah aje di tarikh betdey, majlis tuh ble buat esoknye, 1st january kan cuti :-", besnye birthdate aku :-"

hey, why not you guys go browse your calender, predict your wedding-date :D.
saje saje buat kelaka sesekale ape salahnye.

argh. lapar fruit salad yg kat dlm fridge :D

currently listening to: lotter - yg berlalu tak berulang
currently feeling: nak teberak.

++the past wont happened again ?

i hate it when i knew something not from the own source. i mean, when i heard somebody's complaining about me, but, not to my own ears. even worse, when in front of me, she pretend nice, all good, very2 pretencious, which made me go: owh, she seems like to like me, but, at my back, she kutok me, or she complain about me being too quiet, or sombong, or busybody, or anything lah. i'm ok if you can do the same, being annoyed of me not only at the back, but also in front of me. show it lah you little piece of mooncake! dont pretend and talk at my back.
arghhh, kalo tak suke aku, dan takot nak ckp yg ko tak suke aku dedepan aku, ko tayah lah buat2 baik dgn aku, cemtuh, bulih. nih tak, ko buat2 baik ngan aku, kunun ko mcm suke jee ngan aku, then, ko ckp ngan org lain yg ko rimas dgn aku, ape ituh?

pfuf, abes satu kesah kebenchian. move. another one.
somebody's being annoyed of me putting big big scroll-pictures at my fotopej. the first sentence is totally ok wiv me, she's commenting like this:
"Thumbnail dicipta ada sebab. Lain kali letak je semua gambar besar dalam satu page. Ni namanya nak tunjuk terlebih pandai. "
masok 3rd sentence, part yg ckp me nak tunjuk terlebih pandai, i'd go: ko pehallllllllllllllllll? tanak tgk, sile pegi fotopej org lain. this is me fotopage, showing off me faces. hnm, im not this emo anyway :D, tapi, bile ade org lain yg mcm emo gak dgn kenyataan dia tuh, aku mestilah emo bergande :D. tra la la la. :-"
eh you don know which entry eh? see this one:
http://videlcute.fotopages.com/?entry=884202&back=http://videlcute.fotopages.com/

dah kenape aku emo? sebab, eeeeeeeeek, adalah emo ngan salah seorang rakan sekerja. dan, tanak ulaskan nya. emo. eMo. EMO. ptoihhhhh. semuge saye tidak akan ditangkap. amin.

owh, las saturday, i joined the grunge brats ittew memlawan boling antara batch, ssp alumni. dan ofkos kami tidak menang, tapi kami juara menggossip. bak kate megawati,our junior: dr jawuh dah nampak dah muke sesekor, potpetpotpet mcm makcik2 tgh diskas psl anakdare org. seriyesli, too many gossips to catch up to. u rawklah rakan2 gossip kuh: nyza, ishtar, pacat, loth.

currently listening to: lotter - yg berlalu takkan berulang
currently feeling: emo

++the humdrums

kenapeeeeeeeeeee?????????????
kenape saye disamekan dengan kucing???
kucing gemok plak tu. :((((( nangis.


currently listening to:maroon 5 - harder to breathe
currently feeling: full

++the other day

we quarrelled over things.
one day, we questioned about why people get married.
he said, u see, those rich people [americans], they get married when they were ready enuff to get married, they dun care about age, they established themself strong enuff, and then they'll think of having a family, while our people, they get married because they want to compete each other, they target 25-26, they make sure they will get married that time, to prove it, to compete own friends.
i said, no they werent. they werent even have the glory to compete each other. they just find it, its time, and we should settle down.
he said, u can see your frens, one wedding after another..
i said, menghalalkan yg haram.
he said, no, they want to compete. dot.

ouh rite, i dont even have the right to speak about this. im at my fourteen. :-"

'guys suxx, they make us love them, and then, they hurt us. ' -paris, gilmore girls finaleseason, episode 16.
and when rory gilmore went back to Logan Huntzberger, i was like, she loves him, she loves him no matter what he did. been there.
eh, that is not the end, i havent finished them actually, 3 episodes to go and i am slowing down, i have this weird-ness of 'sayang nye nak habiskan'. heh, who said u r the only weird person in world heh?:D

[and heyy, jess sudah ade his own studio, damn that is cute!]

currently listening to: lifehouse - blind
currently being loved.

++the one who i wanna have

You said that I was naive,
And I thought that I was strong.
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."
Oh but now I know that I was wrong, 'cuz I missed you.

You said, "I caught you 'cuz I want you and one day I'll let you go."
You try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cuz you know you're just so scared to lose.
And you say, "Stay."



once again, i miss you.
huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

++the greatest advice

[10:50] owwek: mende nih takes time beb
[10:50] owwek: aku rase sebulan lagi pon ko still nangis tp tak la teruk cam skang kot
[10:50] owwek: heh
[10:50] owwek: lepas part2 sedih nih
[10:50] owwek: nanti ko rase part2 nak sepak terajang lempang karate
[10:51] owwek: lepas tuh nanti part ko takmoh amik tau langsung, pastuh takmau kene mengene, pasal cerite die pon ko takmoh dengar
[10:51] owwek: until u stop caring about him, that is the time ko bley get over him
[10:51] owwek: selagik ko care, selagik ko nak amik tau, selagik ko dgr
[10:51] owwek: selagi tuh ko akan teringat2, lalu menangis tegolek telentang
[10:52] owwek: peace
[10:55] videl80: wah owwe
[10:55] videl80: first time aku dgr yu talk about relesensip
[10:55] videl80: tekedu
[10:56] videl80: part yg the break-up chronolgy tuh the best
[10:57] owwek: ahahah dont play2
[10:57] owwek: tabahkan hatimu chaiyo chaiyo
thats amongst it. dalam byk2 nasihat, owwe punyer paling hebbat. apsal ntah. huhuhukkk.. yup, im still crying, dying, healing. you named it. tapi bak kate eja, layankan sodih tuh selagi termampu ni.. layan2 lagu sedih nangis sampai bengkak mate, until one day, you'll sick n tired of it. huhukk again. kadang2, bangun2 tido je terus melalak, tatau aku mimpi ape, tapi waking up knowing that you have to be alone is soo-owh pathetic..

bosannnnnnye blog aku!

korang akan bace mende2 bosan ini utk 3bulan, sile tadah tinger. :-"

currently listening to: peterpan - yg terdalam :(((((( nangis nangis
currently feeling: sad. bah!

++the letters to you part 2

you hurt me. you hurt me really bad. really2 bad. in a 'you made me die' bad. so, i beg you, dont touch my heart again, u might see me killing myself. i am mentally dead already.

now, who really thinks sitting alone on the bed with a non-stop phone ringing is not killing oneself?
torturing gile babi.
awak, plis stop. im dying here. apologies not accepted add it to the broken heart you collected.

tetibe terase mcm filem 'sepet' plak. the difference: orked baru nak pegi UK, i, dah balik from UK and the things started a month before my return. how cruel. how cruel.
4 tahun yg merugikan.

zullllll, i need more cigars!
currently listening to: sarah - ke hujung dunia??
currently feeling: aiyo apsal makin hari makin takble terima kenyataan ni :((