arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ngantoks gilers.
dem dem dem gunadem.
i am practically defisit, i owe imah 230.70, i owe o'a the kelantan's tix and movie tix and bunch meals tips.
i owe kaklong 500. i owe daddy 3400. do i have to mention my credit on my HSBC?
and last thursday, while surviving my last few days before the salary coming in, i lost my last 50 ringgit notes given by yance. and after that, i became a total parasit to him. sorry mister.
my prior notice [and some close-frens] was: i am not scared of defisit. i used to live with it. that made me dont bother, made me less ignored. i used to live with the situation during my UK-time, and im not scared of owing my besprens, that's what made me today. damn! lucky i have those kayaraya frens :D
god, i'm no longer scared of defisit, but, ofkos i'm scared of being me unscared of defisit.
i am now, this moment, this very second, ber-ikrar, tidak akan membiarkan diri ini berhutangi kawan2 lagi. amin. ya rabbal alamin.
currently listening to: jason lo - operator, the line is dead !~
currently feeling: scared.
