++the yesterday

"semua karna cinta.. ku menangis.. semua karna cinta.. ku tertawa.. semua karna cinta, semua karna cinta.. yang kau tinggalkan hanyalah luka.."

yang paling saye sayang, kak ujen, yg byk suruh saye fight for it, yg sampai tengahmalam tadi nonstop calling me asking my condition, and asking me to take care of myself.. and apologizing betubi2..
to kak ann & kak petha, yg kasi greenlite utk saye terajang him rite in front of everybody there n then, sori sis, i dont hv the energy just yet. tekedu...
kak met yg paling saye takot..
kak cyn yg paling sporting & rawk..
and mama yan, yg saye sanjungi.

sesungguhnya cinta itu buta dan membutakan.

not until yesterday.
i am now surrender.
white flag.

sorry for everywrong & thanx for everything.

currently listening to: semua jenis sad love song dr ketegeri peterpan padi dewa krisdayanti semua semua tuh, tapi, yg paling biken nangis ialah blink182-i miss you. ya allah nangis lagi.
currently feeling: mcm ada seketol batu duduk dalam hati ini.

++the maitim huhuk

huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa:((
penat ai bersunggoh2 pigi bukit jalil sokong myteam tau :((
apsal korang nihhhhhhhhhhhhh??? apsal lembek sgttttttttt!!!
nangis nangis nangis.. yu guys made me down lah.

walopon jarang2 turun padang tgk bola [bole kire dgn jarijemari],
but i hv few assumptions why they guys did like watching it di depan mata kepala bebanding tgk di tv, which are:
1. kite bole tgk dgn matekepale seniri how unfair a ref. ituh shud be, mmg terase tercabar tahap nak mengcarut woho. ho. ho. ho. ho. horlicks sodap.
2. takkesah ah cemane rempet pon kau, cemane anak derhaka pon kau, cemane ahli-PAS yg anti kajaan gilebabi pon kau, cemane ko tiap hari kutok malaysian and wish to stay at us ke uk ke yg sgt open in anything pon kau, cemane a loser pon kau, cemane playboy pon kau, cemane ustad pon kau, when its time to sing negaraku, everybody will keep quiet [some even tanak jawab henfon tuh!] and sing together. that's malaysian. yeah, it really synchronous and i felt like crying. keji ok aku ni. sumimasennnn :d.
3. byk gile adegan potong from tv wo. we viewed from all corner of the field. i mean, how about seeing an ugly man screaming from the other half of the field, while others termasoklah the 'pasokan keselamatan' concentrating on another goal-side, buat bodoe je malas nak layan tangisan mu.
and seeing someone fell down, di kaki pihak lawan, dan kemudian di terajang diwajahnya, olih pihak lawan tesebot. ai was like: 'babi!!!! woiiii apsal tv tak tunjok nihhhhhh???'
[woups, sori, i emo sbb semalam ai gadoh ngan wanita gila]
4. hnm.. hv u ever tasted a 20cent air oren cap paip, and paid for RM2? hee, u can geddit here. ok la tuh, aku penah pegi konsert fantasia siti dan membeli sebotol coke berharge 10hinggit? like heck! tiket elok2 free, bayo air plak mcm sial harge wayang.
5. moving on to the game itself: kite dapat mentengok secare live how malaysian-team kene boo each [i mean setiapkali tau!] each time their face/ the coach face appeared on screen [tv]. kesian wo. and how the supporters sgt bersatupadu menghoreykan myteam tiapkali mereka appeared on screen.
6. mase first goal frm myteam, dgn aku2 skali melompat tuh! mcm magneto ade dudok kat atas bumbung tuh, dia sedut kitorg. gile melonjak wey. hugs. ade jugak rase nak menetes airmata kegumbiraan, tapi, rilekla brader. gile poyo kalo aku nangis ok. keep quite.
7. dan selepas itu game menjadik tabest. sbb malaysian-under20 telah mengkawal game. myteam mengkawal game pada minit ke 90 aje. hukkks.
8. sebagai seorg yg bukan reti psl bola pon heheh;)), nih komen2 saye [dan mr.yance] mengkenai myteam:
-passing korang sgt horror
- heading yg tak penah jadik? siriyes takpnah skalipon bejaye dgn tandukan. adula.
-overexcited sehingge menggelaban mcm gaban, sgt menggelabah lah. hish.
-goalie tuh sekor, apsal mcm sepakan lembek tuh takble kontrol wey? uhhh. tataula, aku takpenah jadik goalie, tapi, nampak sgt mudah ok.
-patu, entahlah, mungkin diorg nih turn off, sbb, tak dpt lawan actual nationalteam kot :-?? ehh?

sekian sahaje pade waktu ini, saye mahu ke klia menghantar budak gemok balik tawau. selamat siang!~

[ps: peachy'wedding on emil's reception day will be updated tomolo lah. with the piccas]
[another ps: X3 sgt best bebanding davincicode. peace!]

currently listening to: padi - kasih tak sampai.
currently feeling: poning kepalo.

++the 'pick me, choose me, love me!!'

Meredith:
"Okay.. here it is. Your choice, it's simple her or me. And I'm sure she's really great. But, Derek, I love you.. in a really, really big.. pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you love you. So pick me. Choose me. Love me. I'll be at Joe's tonight, so if you do decide to sign the papers.. meet me there."
and do you think that derek will show up at joe's?

things said is way mooore alluring than kept beneath.

oii? im kidding. i like this episode. if u know what i mean. lalala :-"
du yu know that she's in her thirties [1969??]?? i really tot she's twenties. thanx owwe for the info.

[i hate dr addison sheperd. sumimasen :-"]
currently listening to: ella- aku kau dia
currently feeling: loyaloya. moerkhhhhh>:P

++the my team

laily said: "tuah ayam nampak di kaki, tuah my team dapat gi old trafford"
:(((((((((( jeles ok!. i mean, hoho! free-free pegi old trafford??
we went to old trafford, by saving our scholar money tau tak???? naik megabus bodoh yg begoyang2 tuh sampai patah tengkok tau tak?? beratur 3 jam nak tgk a game in there tau tak?? nguhuhuuhuuuu.. how lucky a person can be..
i recap one of the player's comment upon returning from kedai kari mane ntah kat manchester tuh:
"the food? ok lah, but, malaysian food way moooore better. sedap lagi kat malaysia."
and another one:
"hnm manchester? ok la. this is my first and last time. tanak dtg dah"
haa.. amek kauk.. nak sgt kan pegi mancester.. hujan emas dinegara org, hujan batu negeri sendiri, lebih baik negeri sendiri woooo...
but anyhow, i sokong my myteam. semuge myteam menang lawan pasokan kebangsaan. :D peace.
sbb diorg nih mcm bes la pulak.. lawak pon lawak...

now, who did miss this uncle from trafford stadium? dia mcm hebbat la kan dlm tv malam tadi:d
currently listening to: jasonmraz - life is wonderful
i miss you love

++the life is super wonderful

huhuhuhhhhhh...
penat dan menghantok nyah.
just went back from jb. peachy's wedding yesterday.
aiyo yu cantik la dude. congrats peachy n emil. happy life for both!
from left: zaid, lalok, lyd, shake, me, oa.
more piccas awaiting, go to my fotopages [not yet update ngeee:D]

currently listening to: jason mraz - life is wonderful
currently feeling: saiko-ed by a saiko

++the one with the smelly cat

pagi semalam mase nak gi keje, ade sekor kucing tido atas bonet kete aku. comel sgt sgt weyh. taktipu.
trying not to kacau her tido, i 'syuhh.. syuhh..' secare bebisik.. [dgn harapan dia akan bangon secare mengigau dan blah..] tapi tak.. dia tak dgr tuh.. dia tido secare hebbatnya lagi.. its already late, 5 mins to 9am, kene pegi keje.. table jadik.. lalu, ku 'toit,toit', picit lah jugak alarm bukak kete tuh.. terpisat2, kucing tuh buke mate kemalasan. [ehwah, mcm dlm novel plak].
then dia panang aku, then, dia tido semule..
[mcm kalo ko kejot laki ko bangun tido kan.. centuh la dia..]
yak allah comel sgt sgt lahnya.. then aku kejot lagi.. 'bangun meoww.. bangun..'[separoh bebisik]
then dia buke mate lagi skali.. then dia buat muke cute dia tuh..
dlm hati dia ckp: "5 minit lagi plisss"[skali lagi, mcm kalo kite kejot laki kite bangun]
oih, table jadi ni.. 'meow.. bangunnn bangunnn.." [separoh tak bebisik dah]
then, dia buke mate lagi dan menggeliat seriyes mcm kalo kite bangun tido tuh..
seriyes mcm pangai kite kite..

dalam hati, 'kalolaa ko sa-orang lelaki hemsem dan bersih.. dah lame aku ciom ko betubitubi.. tapi, kau hanyalah seekor kucing'
sigh.
aku takot + tak berani + tak pernah pegang kucing. walopon aku ske tgk kucing. tgk dr jauh sahaja. tidak brani mendekati.
sekian, trime kaseyyyyy...

notes: aku belom kawen, dan belom ade laki. jgn bersangka buruk ya, tak manis.
currently listening to: inara george - infinity
currently feeling: warm

++the sengalest pak pandir

tekatekitekatekuk, ular mati dlm mangkok
1. banyak2 kuda, kuda apa yg kite tanampak dia, dia nampak kite?
2. banyak2 syiling, syiling ape paling hitam?
3. banyak2 mende, mende ape yg tak kuar semase tido?

:-"

till then, enjoy newest pic of atokkuh; [mcm pakpandir]


currently listening to: yellowcard - only one
currently feeling: down 8-

++the phone ring

monotous.
i hope i'll have some peaks during peachy's big-day. this weekend.
i hope so. amin.

p/s nak diettttttttttttttt!!! i need 5 kilos of evacuations. huks!

currently listening to: dewa - lover's rhapsody
currently feeling: monotous

++the teacher's day we should cherish

remember budakgemok?? from my engineering design class.
rite after i shouted and slammed the door behind, i rxd trails of smses, bunch actually. from the classmates.
some apologies from behalf, some, from their inner heart themselves.
and that nite, he called me, pleading for apologies. and he heard me said: "apologies not accepted add it to the broken heart you collected!"
ngiahahahha, takder ah, aku tak sekejam ituh. ituh adelah lirik lagu all cried out:D.
i just said: ok, itu je awak nak ckp heh? ok bye..
i didnt even mention that ive apologized him, because he kept on repeating of how inhuman he is even to his own frens? the fnck? i just need a simple sorry admitting his own fault. dotted.

so then, he did sms me sesekali, mcm nak sejukkan hatiku yg beku kot.
until the days before final xm, my colleage [eyin] threatening him when he's asking for extra marks for his lab-assignment.
eyin said: "apa? nak mintak dpt 'A'.. aa.. nanti saye tanye kat cikhas1fah dulu yeh, kalo dia kasi, saye kasi.."
ROFL.=)). sesekali menjadik keji akan menjadikan kite best. sugoii!!
and he replied to eyin: " :(( cik hezrin, cik has1fah tuh dah maafkan saye ke ek? saye sms dia tak reply2, tapi, bile jumpe dlm lift dia mcm ok pulak begelak ketawa dgn rakan2 saye"
another ROFL =))
[so, anda tahu tak ape agaknye lecturer/cikgu2 anda ngumpat di belakang anda? my previous teachers pernah mengkonfess, yg, mereka telah memberikan nama samaran kpd kami2 dan mereka saring mengumpat menggunekan name2 samaran ituh di bilik guru. yak ampon. kelaka tau cikgu2 nih.]

and the fact that one of the classmates, texted me with:
"happy teachers day cik. Hope u happy always. trima kasih prnah mengajar kami." did really made my day.
atleast ade gak org appreciate aku. thanx you.

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY all!
[especially eja, kaknoni, eyin, rose, kaksue, kakhajar, ilalat, jue, farrah, kakina, kakmasa, kakandak, kakmas,woi bapak ramai woiii.. semua lecturer2 iuctt:D, semua cikgucikgi kuh, hamzaharoff:D, semua lekcere um, surr3y, dan semua2 lah]

[notes: ROFL-rolling on the floor laughing]

currently listening to: guru wawasan =))))))
currently feeling: bliss.

++the mother's day

happy mother's day mom! i luv you.



i think im having the pms thing. sucks!
currently listening to: lifehouse - blind
currently feeling: grey. mcm dr.grey. intuition.

++the geek in the pink. i luv u lah. :))

notes: geek in the pink is a song by jason mraz.

daily dose of bloghopping is a must now. gosh!
i figure, no matter how much works piling on my table from the day before, no matter how busy the day will be, i will do the same routine every morning, checking up my daily-cuppa. atleast the usual one. and bloghoppin will then be done when am not so preoccupied with samtin to submit in the noon.
huhh mcm addicted pulok.

anyways, i watched failure to launch last nite. altho some people might say this kinda movie, simple2 + loveydovey type ni, membazir tgk wyg, ble tgk cd aje, but, i am this type of suke membazir kot:-??
the movie, i think is sweetly done. cume, i think sarah jessica parker is too old for the char. eh? ntahla. :D
and i might add that this type of movie is the type of movie 'll rejoice back my brain after a daily routine of '9-7pm being paranoid of how my boss hated me' syndrome. mcm citer 50 first dates tuh. hilang penat bekerja seharian wo. bile balik tuh rase ringan aje melayanglayang. [walopon dah naik 5 kilo]. ngeeheee:D
layankan aje aku nih. konflik diri konflik diri.
yay mlm ni mahu nonton ituh poseidon. yay citer berat takpe tgk kalo esoknye tak keje. yayyyyyyyyyyy esok cutiiiiiiiiiiii sugoiiii sugoiiiiiiiiii!!!!!

on another notes,
reading chics blog made me write this.
tau tak cemane nak cari org yg hilang yer?
senang aje, call adekbadek dia dan mak dia dan susahkan hati semorang. supaya in the end, ade pompan malang seperti aku nih menjadik seperti pompan keji yg sunggoh tidak ada adab.
ops sori, ter emo berdasarkan pengalaman tak best. sila abaikan disitu.

currently listening to: padi: begitu indah
currently feeling: sleepy. sempat lagi tido kot b4 movie nanti.

++the love unsaid

based on a true story.

a wife died 40 days after her husband death.

ok the story.
this husband and wife were not living normally the season before their death.
they were living in the same house, but, they were separately separate, in all ways.
they sleep in different rooms, they talk in different air, they especially trying to not facing each other in all circumstances.
they stayed for the sake of their children: the only reason why they dont want to get divorce.
they used to be a very very happy couple. they got married because of their deep love ituh.
they build their own house, the husband was an architect. and they had beautiful kids. beautiful life at first.
and then they became enemy to each other. and no one knows the reason of their separateness.

until one day, the husband died of lung cancer. and everyone was sad. especially the wife.
slowly after his death, the wife is getting sick. day by day, became worse. and rite after 40 days, she died.

maybe she was holding herself? maybe all this while she was pretending she dont care, but, she cared too much until she killed herself? maybe she still loved the husband, but ego stucked her to follow her heart? and worse is, she didnt made it to time to straight things up, her husband was the one who go first from her life.

in our life, ego is the cruellest thing that a heart can hold on to.

and,
'there's a danger in loving somebody too much, and its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust. there's a reason why people dont stay where they are, baby, sometimes love just aint enough.. '

currently listening to: patty smith - sometimes love just aint enough
currently feeling: observed

++the truth said rudely is way more better than the lie said correctly

1. i confessed, that last nite's conversation was the best conversation i've ever had. luv yu.

2. mission impossible 3 is a must watch movie. sgt best.

3. there's this last part in 'pulse' trailer, when kristenbell trying to listen by putting her ear to the wall, and a zombie is hearing on the other side, yance is making use of that scene to scare me out; when am trying to listen to my neighbour. damn! [i know not my neighbours :D]

4. now, who would want to watch failure to launch with me? i so like matthew mc-con-na-heyyy since 'a time to kill'. so, i dun care if the movie was rated 5.5, i need refreshmentor.

currently listening to: dewa - sedang ingin bercinta
currently feeling: the inferno

++the truth hurts

i grab a forwarded email, nice one nih
Letter from them: men

Rules for the World CupExtremely important advice and recommendations to be passed on to wives, girlfriends, fiances, mothers, sisters, daughters, etc. (to all women in general) These rules are to be communicated prior to the World Cup in June/July this year...

LIST OF RULES1. From 9 June to 9 July 2006, you should read the sports section of the newspaper so that you are aware of what is going on regarding the World Cup, and that way you will be able to join in the conversations. If you fail to do this, then you will be looked at in a bad way, or you will be totally ignored. DO NOT complain about not receiving any attention.

2. During the World Cup, the television is mine, at all times, without any exceptions. If you even take a glimpse of the remote control, you will lose it (your eye).

3. If you have to pass by in front of the TV during a game, I don't mind, as long as you do it crawling on the floor and without distracting me. If you decide to stand nude in front of the TV, make sure you put clothes on right after because if you catch a cold, I wont have time to take you to the doctor or look after you during the World Cup month.
[seriyes ko tak pedulik kalo aku naked depan tv??? :((( huwaaaa kejinyerrrr]

4. During the games I will be blind, deaf and mute, unless I require a refill of my drink or something to eat. You are out of your mind if you expect me to listen to you, open the door, answer the telephone, or pick up the baby that just fell from the second floor....it wont happen.

5. It would be a good idea for you to keep at least 2 six packs in the fridge at all times, as well as plenty of things to nibble on, and please do not make any funny faces to my friends when they come over to watch the games. In return, you will be allowed to use the TV between 12am and 6am, unless they replay a good game that I missed during the day.

6. Please, please, please!! if you see me upset because one of my teams is losing, DO NOT say "get over it, its only a game", or "don't worry, they'll win next time". If you say these things, you will only make me angrier and I will love you less. Remember, you will never ever know more about football than me and your so called "words of encouragement" will only lead to a break up or divorce.

7. You are welcome to sit with me to watch one game and you can talk to me during halftime but only when the commercials are on, and only if the halftime score is pleasing me. In addition, please note I am saying "one" game, hence do not use the World Cup as a nice cheesy excuse to "spend time together".

8. The replays of the goals are very important. I don't care if I have seen them or I haven't seen them, I want to see them again. Many times.

9. Tell your friends NOT to have any babies, or any other child related parties or gatherings that requires my attendance because:
a) I will not go,
b) I will not go, and
c) I will not go.

10. But, if a friend of mine invites us to his house on a Sunday to watch a game, we will be there in a flash.

11. The daily World Cup highlights show on TV every night is just as important as the games themselves. Do not even think about saying "but you have already seen this...why don't you change the channel to something we can all watch??", the reply will be: "Refer to Rule #2 of this list".

12. And finally, please save your expressions such as "Thank God the World Cup is only every 4 years". I am immune to these words, because after this comes the Champions League, Italian League, Spanish League, Premier League, etc etc.

Thank you for your cooperation.
Regards,
Men of the World

my notes: tapayah worldcup, thomas cup pon diorg dah jadi gila emo [-( yance keji moerkhhh>:P

currently listening to: jason mraz - geek in the pink
currently feeling: abhored!

++the unknown resolution. :-"

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY
to my friend in d4mansara, my friend in KL, my friend in PJ, my friend in Shah Alam, my friend in negeri9, my friend in Bangi, my friend in Sabah, my friend in Malaysia, my friend in guildford, my friend in UK, my friend in US, my friend in Japan, my friend in Canada, my friend in indonesia, my friend in spore, my friend from T.B.S, my 90 friends from ssp kl, my older friends, my younger friends, my uniMalaya friend, my uni Surr3y friends, my boyfriend.

I wish for world peace, that no one dare not being like martha [pompuan dlm desperate housewife], yg suke memporakperandakan kehidupan org lain. lets be friend, and say no to world-war.
i love you all.

bilekejadah plak harinih frensep day?? apeke gile aku ni??:
i got an email, from a fren, a forwarded one yups, cerita tentang wanita bertudung yg berpakaian seksi, ketat, dan adakalanya terbukabuki, dan *blushes* saye rase insaf dan berkata kpd yance:
"mulai hari ini, saye tidak akan lagi bepakaian kecik"
"ni baju awak nih bukan kecik ker?" [sambil mentarik2 t-sert kuning itu]
bajukah yg sudah mengecil, atau akukah yg maken menglemak? :-s
kawan2ku sekalian [terutamanya imah, oa, naiza, owwe!, sue],
marilah kite polang ke pangkal jalan. usah lagi bermimpi membeli gaps-kid.
[*tahan napas*, saye pasti tidak berjaya :((, sbb saye bernapsuh tinggi tehadap pakaian kecil :D]

inih lagu yg kucari dr bulan 2. mahukan mp3nya? buzz me.
dewilestari - pulang
Tuhanku
ku ingin bercerita
ku tunduk bersujud
ku mulai berdoa

lelahnya jiwaku
beratnya langkahku

Tuhanku
ku rindu tawaku yang dulu
kejujuran kebenaran yang dulu ku tahu
ke mana semua
sejauh itukah
ku sesal sudah

peluklah semua tanyaku
jawablah dengan cara Mu

Tuhanku
ku ingin berkelana
kembali mencari jalan ke rumah
bukan di sini tempat ku
bukan mereka yang ku cinta

hari ini
ku mengenali
arti keberanian
yang menerbangkanku
di atas semua derita
dan apa kabarnya

usai semua sandiwara
cukup ku berpura pura
sejujurnya
hanya dia yang ku cinta
ke hatinya aku ingin pulang

currently listening to: dewi lestari - pulang [9 naga OST]
currently feeling: bridled (:

++the one that won

watch and rate this video from red ribbon during the MMU Talentime 2006.


1. congratulations to 'red-ribbon' sbb menang talentime MMU last friday the 28th.
buat babikiu jgn lupekan guek. bidiyo terlampau sumer sudah syiaps.

2. we went to watch musical-teater 'lantai t.pinkie' last saturday. the fact that nasha wasnt quite sparkling compared to azizah mahzan dissappoint me a bit. and i kinda like su ai ling 'putih sue' ituh. dia gedik best. :D
and, err, bole kate boring gak la teater ni ngihiii:D.. walopon ok kot.. ntah. aku tensen line tepon takdok kot. :D
[yup, i did watched the real teater yg bukan musical 'lantai t.pinkie' by juhara ayob wih my parents last 3 years kot. pon boring sikit]
with that, i think, i preferred english-teater kot, they are more juicy & refreshing. peace!
3. sukenye hati setelah membeli external-hatdis. piaw piaw piaw melompat2 girang. tak saba nak sedut2 :-s

4. dgcam saye sudah tidak bulih dipakai, secare biase ataupon luarbiase. mari menangis :((((((( secare germilang. yance cadangkan jual sahajos camcorder itu dan beli dgcam baru. 8-}. sayang.

currently listening to: john mayer - daughters
currently feeling: sad. sad. sad.