++the patient

embun di pagi buta
menebarkan bau asa
detik demi detik ku hitung
inikah saat ku pergi

oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

aku tak mudah mencintai
aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
aku tak mudah mengatakan
aku jatuh cinta

senandungku hanya untuk cinta
tirakatku hanya untuk engkau
tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta
sampai ku menutup mata
cintaku sampai ku menutup mata

oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

currently listening to: acha septriasa - sampai menutup mata
currently feeling insane, dhahhh???
i wanna kiss tomcruise lah

++the kueh raye mayonddd

hari ini saye tidak mahu ke pasar ramadhan kerane saye telah rindukan futkot ikano.
hehehe. slurps lah. tak sabarnye nak balik!!

mengantukkkkkkkkkkkkkknyeeeeeeeeeee
eh, sudahkah anda semua order kueh raye?
dumweri, kwn saye lond tuh amek order kueh raye, so, sile orderlah kawan2.
visit her fp: http://lyynda.fotopages.com
saye telah order kueh havana [dah dpt], sarang semut, almenlanden dan tart gemok.
anda bile lagi?

currently listening to: lifehouse - breathing
currently feeling: sleepy
i wanna see atuk huhuk walopon sudah see 4 jam yg lepas.

++the one with blue eyes

gambar kenangan: last year's @ bazaar ramadhan ttdi tuh

sedih1:
dimanekah this year's pasar ramadhan ttdi weyyyyyyy?
last year, lastlastyear, triple lastyear, semuanya di belakang pasar ttdi tuh, katkat ibm tuh. this year dia pegi mane weyhhhh???

sedih2:
my office hour is until 6pm :(((((( mane nak sempat nak memasakkkkk, hehehe.

sedih3:
d4mansara perdana towards muti4ra d4mansara jammed :((.yg kat trefik lite kat tesco tuh. adulaaa haiii.. i finally reach home at 6.45pm :((

sedih4:
pastu, i went to bazar ramadhan at kota d4mansara nun jawuh tuh [yg mane itulah yg paling dekat kot]. dan semua makanan adelah sipi2 je tinggai :(( kueh mueh semua dah abis :(( mencinyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
pastu, lauk o'a & yan masin gile tak hingat. very very good start la weyy.

sedih5:
takkan hari2 aku nak bebuke semase sedang membeli nasi di pasar ramadan weyyy??:((

sedih6:
nak nak kueh bingke makcik kedai sebelah kedai ikan bakar yg kat pasar ttdi tuh:((

sedih7:
too many things to crave for, but, too late to get it. :( perhaps, i should bake my own kuehmueh liao. lets get an oven after the gaji!

currently listening to: my heart lagih.
currently feeling: scared of my job. ngaaaa8-x
i wanna have more money!!!~

++the 'how to keep my love' movie

la la la la la.
do you know how to cry instantly? i mean, if you really want to cry, but then you cant cry, but you really want to cry to burst all out, what will yu do? watch movies! and here i recommend:
how to keep my love
it helps if you have same life-storyline wiv the movie. achtung!: this is not some kesah hidup yg derita or patah kaki, or buta, or yg sakit2 punyer cerita sedih. this is a total romance sad love story. so, kalo ko tak suke citer cintan, tayah tgk lah.

duhh, i kept telling myself to be tough, but, thing is, i am vulnerable each and every single day. every thing, every single thing i have to ask why. i have to doubt. and every running events made me mesmerizing my old days. and the best part is, i am more than with enuff experience than anyone could foreseen. but, i am weak myself. i hope ramadhan will make me strong.

ps: yesterday yesterday, while having our midnite-chat @nailis, taipan, wiv oa zul n yans, adam of AF2 passed by. and the fact that he didnot bekelip mata menpandangkuh and ignored yans'smile towards him that time, was a bliss after so much hatred of the nite. thanx la weyyy~
ps2: adam hemsem wo!

currently listening to: remioromen - konayuki
currently feeling: phobia
i wanna go home n sleep

++the cuppacakes by wondermilk

see here: http://videlcute.fotopages.com/?entry=925437&back=http://videlcute.fotopages.com/?page=0#CommentsTop

owwek: mane ko dpt
owwek: cp4hhh cantiknye cupcakes tuhhh
owwek: cemane ko order?
owwek: cemane kah die kire
owwek: sungguh sweetttttt
videl80: :-" yayy
videl80: aku sweet tak?
videl80: ;))
owwek: sweet giler
owwek: rase cam nak ngorat ko
videl80: aku pon terase sgt sweet
owwek: ahahah
videl80: :))
videl80: bongokkkkkkkkkkk
[*potong*]
owwek: kau sudah menjadik promoter nih
owwek: hehehe
videl80: tuhla
videl80: bukan ko sorang
videl80: dah ramai dah aku kene terangkan ni
owwek: berape hari doh nak abiskan sume cupcakes nih
videl80: ibu2 ngandung especelinyer
videl80: penat ahkakk
owwek: ahahah
videl80: owh soalan ko sunggoh cepu
videl80: aku dan yan abiskan sekali hadap:-"

1. ayat owwe: 'rase mcm nak ngorat ko' adelah ayat paling berkuasa pade hari ini. =)). adui adui gelak dan nangis.
for those tatau, owwe ialah perempuan, owwe ialah bini orang, owwe ialah bakal jadi ibu.
lelaki tidak tau kot appreciate the way popan appreciate. sigh.

2. ye betul tuh, bukan takat si owwe, ramai giler ibu2 ngandung ngidamkan nye setelah ku bubuh sebagai gamba YM. contohnye: e'ja & intansafina. seme pakat nangis nak gak ;)) and i became a promoter un-officially. hanis of wondermilk patot kasi aku free 5 box nih.;))

3. for more details of the price n how to order, please visit: http://cuppacakes.blogspot.com

4. sometimes loves just aint enuff, eh?

currently listening to: teriyaki boys - tokyo drift
currently feeling: weird, why is it i have my 2nd pms in less than 2 weeks?
i wanna get free buffet invitation!

++the tabung haji

"and thank u ibu for giving me permission to withdraw money from my tabung haji account to buy the tele."the guy who wrote the sentence [smek], he doesnt know me, me either. i read his blog. eh, i mean, i do know him, in a viewers point of view lah. [mcm aku kenal brandon boyd, tapi, brandon boyd tak kenal aku]
this guy's band [sgt. weener arms] is somewhat quite popular among mmu-ans. kot. [eh, if u dun know this band, u r not an mmu-an?][eh, im not an mmu-an either].
i met him [and other band members] err 2-3 times kot at the hostel, at the disagree-showcase, gig kat bkt jalil.. etc. and yup, i dun think he reckon me, dia salu borak2 ngan yance aje.
ok back, he wrote the sentence, at the end of him thanking all frens & supporters for his band lah. and that is the last sentence lah. "and thank u ibu for giving me permission to withdraw money from my tabung haji account to buy the tele".
i think thats cute. doncha?

i once withdraw my tabung haji account money to pay my car-insurance. thats cruel, and i dare not tell mom. i can hear loudly her screaming before anyone. so, baik diam2 patu nanti masok la sikit2. [which i failed to].

i mean, i dig* bad guys who loves his mom. no matter how rempit or punk he is, if at the end of the day, he went back home and hugged his mom and said i love u mom, owh, that's sweet. person who respect and adore his mom no matter how noisy that mom could be. eh, dun get me wrong, i'm not meaning that smek is a bad guy. adula. abaikan lah.

eh, do you all have tabung haji account?
hehehe.

currently listening to: rie fu - life is like a boat
currently surfing the myspace :D
i wanna go to the magicworld of florida!!!

++the feeds

"No feeds were found. Please verify that the website publishes an RSS feed. "

alangkah bencinyer ku mendapat msg inih.. disini, inginlah saye menseru kawan2 ku supaye check samada your blog publishes an RSS feed. inih ialah kerna lebih senang guek nak track perkembangan blog2 anda semua.
u know, i loike lah this 'bloglines-http://www.bloglines.com/myblogs' thing, it keeps track of my daily-cuppas, simple and easy. it tells me which blog has an update. sonang gilo, takyah susah2 nak bukak satu-satu semua blog utk check updates. tapi, tulah, ade a few blogs yg tidak ade rss feed, maka, this bloglines takble track. contoh blog ialah: blog sue & aida. *take notes!*

*eh, du yu know that last sunday, after the kenduri kahwin fariq&rose, i went tengok wayang snakes on the plane dgn memakai baju kebaya itu? : dan perasaannya ialah, seperti ular2 masuk kedlm kain, dan menangis.
did i not tell u that i am afraid of snakes? or even worms? *lelah*

currently listening to: flipside - someday
currently flipping thru my old photos ;)
i want to go ireland. :D

++the statistics

hehehe.
pelik kan mendalah nih. guek dah cube kaji dah, my another stats showed different statistic of incoming visitors. hnm, weird. so, jgn percaye sgt lah mendalah mapstats nih kot. i think those sitemeter & webstats4u adalah lebih reliable kot.

but then, lemme try solving the puzzle by guessing who's who.
[malas mo buat keje ofis]

1.king of prussia, US:
sebab dia mcm dekat penn state, make ai nak tuduh adik leli ;))
2.united kingdom:hnm, any surr3y-an or aida? or bebudak surr3y lah kot yg google name fariq n rose kot ;))
3.kg haji abdullah hukum:pekeje telekom nih kot. ai nak teka owwe lah.
4.kl, malaysia:erm.. gile tak precise letak kl centuh. kl bukannye kecik. haduuuu. i nak teke aaa elly lah.
5.camberwell, aussie:wah.. nih sure anak sulung datuk k nih :))))))
6.kg penaga, malaysia:kejadah naga nih? ttaau katner nih, tapi, bile google, dia tulis kat penang, so, i teke imahan spender.
7.dublin, ireland:lina, sebab dia dok situ ;))
8.australia:ex-wife datuk k aka tg.zawiyah :-?? kot :-??
9.kg bukit kerayong, malaysia:sape plak duduk kerayong ni ek.. i teke ziela jalil lah. [tatau, tetibe nak tekuar name dia ;))]
10.lane cove, australia:hnm, sape lagi dok aussie nih.. daniel johns (silverchair) kot [ngahaaahaaaa pasannnnnnn!!!!]
11.charlotte, USgood charlotte kot :))
12.kg pelimbaian, malaysia:wallauweyyy, takot hmmkay name kg nih. hehehe. ntah kat mane lah nih. ai think this is siti nurhaliza lah kot. ;))
13.kuantan, malaysia:sape dok kuantan angkat tangan! kak amy kot, sbb dia dok kuantan :D
14.talence, france:zidane??? 8-x
15.pudu, malaysia:uik?? kalo penjare pudu tuh dah takde orang, takkan hantu kot???
16.middletown, UK:chris martin lah nih. konfem!
17.lucky park, singapore:hoho, my colleage ade sane skang, oii, adekah ko tgh bace blog aku oii??
18.london, uk:guek teka pie, sbb dia sorang je lagi kwn guek kat london.
19.dubai, UAE:adelina, sbb dia sorang je kwn guek kat dubai ;))
20.stoughton, UK:james blunt?
21.kg baharu cheras batu sembil4n, malaysia:hans isaac, sebab guek suke dia :-"
22.kg bukit lanjan:guek lah, d4mansara perdana dekat bukit lanjan what?
23. jitra,malaysia:pezal kot sbb dia duduk kedah ;))
24.pantai valley,malaysia:leli sebab dia busuk ;))

eh? mane no.25????

currently listening to: eman - i shutdown
currently feeling: sick
i wanna go to pulau perhentian :(((

++the prawns

yerrrrrrrrr benerrr...
that's my 4th prawn of the nite. heh. blessed nite.
i went to fariq + rose 's reception at dewan merak kayangan last nite. wiv beyonce.
at first i thought, owh where lah all the people nih. lambat sunggoh, tapi, alangkah bagusnye jike meja ini kosong sampai sudah. doa termakbol, when, eventually, mmg meja kami ialah kosong sampai sudah.
[+hanye ade sorang lagi pakcik yg tak kuat makan sahaje].
so, we both melantak udang2 besar tuh sorang 4 ketol. [other table was looking jealously, they only got one each :-"].

hnm, well, twas bekos our table was isolated ke, atau i am not good at screening other table, tapik, i cant see anyone that i knew of. fariq was my ex-colleage, i saw no other ex-colleage. rose pula was an ex-UM, pon, i cant see anyone i knew. i was looking for e'jan [my ex-roomie yg adalah bespren rose dulu], hnm, manelah diorg duduk ek. they both were also an ex-surr3y, i didnot see any surr3y-an there [accept ash&bf].
takpelah, tunggu prettypeektures kuarkan gambar2.
this is our table. kosong dan best utk melantak. :D. and we brot back 4 ketol souviners. ;)


currently listening to: rihanna - unfaithful
currently feeling: scared of my fate
i want to: go to hawaiii

++the regulars

sedih.
sangatttttt sangatttt sedihhhhhhhhh
sangattttttttttttttttttttttttt!

currently listening to: lifehouse - u n me
currently feeling: sleepy
i wanna eat cheese cake!

++the brain

"if u love somebody
could we be this strong
i will fight to win
our love will conquer all
wouldn't reach my love
even just one night
our love will stay in my heart
my heart"

eh. lagu teda kenemene.

lasnite we discussed. of how we at lower form [Form 1 contohnya], seeing modern maths as that difficult, but when we were at upper form [F4 contohnya], we were being snob of knowing that the modern maths itu was very-very easy, compared to our add-maths. and so does to other subjects lah.
and then we concluded, that is because our brain was developing. and it developed exponentially with time at that time.

now at my 25, i still felt that electric circuit is as difficult as it was in my 1st year electrical engineering [erm, 7 years back :-??].
so, does that means my brain didnot/stillnot developing eversince uni-age??
ohmaigod! or maybe it is developing, but very very slowly, i think bukan takat tidak exponential, adalah mungkin juge tidak bekadar lurus juga. dia mcm alala nak mendatar.

ke caner?

30mins ago, in a phone-conversation with mrs.somebody, she mentioned about me having a master degree, and why cant me judge something with that level of education.
and i said, level of education didnot represent of how one thinking, or being spammed!
tipu tetap tipu, i think, when my brain is not good at lying, my brain is also not good of rejecting lies from liars. most liars are very good in judging another liars ek?

owh, i forgot, bukankah hidup kita akhirnya harus bahagia?

my new carkeys keychain :-"


currently listening to: flipside - someday
currently feeling weird.

++the neighbour

"hello, boleh saye cakap dgn has1fah?"
"yer saye.."
"hi, saye jiran awak.. awak duk kat muti4ra kan?"
gulp. pebende ni weyyyh? *cuak*
"ha ah.. saye duduk kat situh.."
"haa.. i think i found your atm card, and other cards.. tercicir"
"hoh???" *menggelabah dan sedang menggelupur menyelongkar handbag*
"sini ade namecard awak, i think your previous company, i called them, diorg ckp yu dah benti.."
"haa.. ha ah.. dah benti.. hnm.. so, cemane ek nak jumpe u.."
"u keje mane skang?"
"d4mansara perdana"
"i pon keje d4mansara perdana gak, dekat2 ngan kodak, kat baloh tuh"
"haa ok, why not kite jumpe kat baloh lunch kang"
"i kat luar ni, nanti u call this number and see if we can see during lunch yeh."
"okaik"

1. how come i didnot realize that i was losing my cards??? this is so cruel. where's my head?
2. do not own so many cards that you yourself is forgetting of owning them.
that makes me urging for the 'mykad' newest version, where all the atms, ic, tng, lesen, kreditcard semua in one card, so i can tag it to my neck.
perhaps, kalo boleh, nak yg bleh include together the juscokad, bonuslink, mesralink, mjayakad, studentkad, or even lebrikad? [jika ada]. all together in one card. kan senang.
eh, tapi nanti akan sepi lah my new wallet ittew :-j [yg poket kad dia ade 15 tuh] [ye, aku kira oKey!] [tengs u:*]
3. i choose not to know my neighbours. tatau apsal, i dun feel like knowing each other [keji sunggoh], but now, identity revealed 8-x. padan muke aku.
4. i called the number [no.pejabat], but the person picking up said she has no idea who is calling me, and ofkos she cant give the hp number, she dunno who liao. so, aku tgh cuak lagi lah.
5. no, i rarely encounter any neighbour semase pergi dan semasa pulang dr kerja. atau semasa biasa2. jarang sahangat.
6. budak popan ofis depan mempunyai sepasang sepatu pink yg sebijik sebujut mcm sepatu saye. dan kami same2 pakai sepatu yg same hari ini.
[sebbaik tak naik lift same2 today] [yer betol, itu ialah tekuar topik]

currently listening to: my heart - acha sepriakopratasa:))
currently having a stomachache.

++the panic at the disko dut

helllllllllllll low.
i have never been this idle. muiiiyo, bz nyer kuh. [padahal baru beberape hari jer tak mentulis entry :-"] ngihihii, sengalnye. anyways, i loved my previous week-ends. why? becoz:

1. i got to see some old frens, especially si monno & si mazni yg sudah bertahun tak berjumpe tuh.
we [5 orang] have our grup's reunion secare tak sengaje & we drove back to kg pasir ambor in one white kelisa. mazni's. and then tido kegelupuran di rumah ku.
2. i got to see my parents & my beloved home. dah lame tak balik kg. heheh, aku mmg pemalas blk kg.
3. i got to see atuk.

lengkaplah weekend yg berjumpa semorang yg sudah lame tak bejumpai.

and today, what made today special? because finally, i can power up my module [ahh, buat2lah paham ttg kerjaye kuh yeh]. and today is oso special bekoz i have new keychain at my car-keys. cadangnye nak letak gamba sebagai tande menunjuk2, tapik, malas nak upload.

till then, selamat mentengok gamba2 poyo dari fotopej beta di http://videlcute.fotopages.com
to mufida&ashir, congratulations!~




currently listening to:samson kenangan terindah
currently feeling:scared

++the lucky no.2

japgi tulis, tgh pikir ayat nih.

sambungan..

b4 ai proceed, inginlah dinyatekan disini lucky no. tuh takde kenemene ngan wedding bells ;)

laily (10:33:36 AM): mana tagboard
laily (10:33:40 AM): ai nak komplen ni
videl (10:36:16 AM): jap
videl (10:36:22 AM): i tgh adjas komen ni
laily (10:37:16 AM): mangse selepas ini: laily ;) the lucky no.2
laily (10:37:19 AM): b-(
videl (10:37:23 AM): ;))
videl (10:37:33 AM): wiken nih i karang esei utk u yeh
laily (10:37:37 AM): [penat ai senyap je tak komen pape supaya tak kena]
videl (10:37:38 AM): baik u buat baik ngan ai
laily (10:37:45 AM): at least 2 page pliss
laily (10:37:46 AM): :-"
videl (10:37:48 AM): kalo tak i paste memende sekretip8-x
laily (10:38:17 AM): kasi ai proof read dulu
videl (10:38:31 AM): >:P

hehehe. inihlah pangai si leli busok nih. ;))
ape ek nak citer pasal kamu.
i knew her baru jak 2 tahun. :-o baru 2 tahun kerrr, i felt like knowing her years. kalah kawan skolah menengah. hehe. sorilah beb, i cant remember we bekenal2an at the BTN course we attended together, but, i remember bekenalan mase ade satu ceramah MARA kat bangunan mara. a week b4 we togedegede flying to UK. that is the day when we exchanged fon number, and starting sms-ing, discussing about our luggage weight :-j ecewah, mcm bf plak.
but still, mcm biase2 je lah berkawan gitu2 je, takdela kenal sgt budak busuk nih adelah sebusuk ituh.
not until we finally landed on surr3y's ground, we had most of the class together kot. eh actually not most, half the classes, tapi, she's the closest person to me disana. :-j ehuu, apsal ayat ku bebunyi jiwang nih. mencinyer.
selalu lah share2 movie ke anime ke lagu ke apepeke besame. try buat beberape recipe bersame. pegi memane trips anjuran sendiri pon bersamesame [except italy]..

yea, tak dilupekan juwe, kami ialah bersame berdua mentengok manchester united vs fullham di stadium old trafford secara beratur selame 3 jam sebelom the game started. ituh ialah kenangan terindah tuh. [ewwwww:-j]. byk benornyer kenangan terindah. susah kang tulis kang bukan takat 2 pages, bley naik satu novel mcm novel mawi & ina tuh nanti ;))

kenangan pahit ialah apebile dia nih tekentot busok sekali. :))
ngehahhahahahhaa. taklah. tipu je :-". tapi si leli nih ialah berangin puting beliung perutnye, selalu tau nak bebunyi2 dangdut, especeli ketike dalam class. moerkh sgt. selalu kalo tgk movie didalam kesamaran malam, tgh movie tuh sunyi sepi tuh, tibe2 dgr bunyi puting beliung dia moerkhhhhhhhh>:P sangatttttt.
walaupon begitu, dia ini sgt baek hati, suke membantu bagaikan aur dgn tebingnye :D
tidak hairanlah jike ramai makcik2 bekenan nak jadikan menantu sepergiannye ke kenduri tunang akaklongku tempohari. walopon nampak tekial2 dia dan yance tuh membasuh beras di tepian dapur, namun, terusik gak lah seposen hati makcik2 yg memandang tuh utk dijadikan menantu. :))
[part tuh ai buat cerite, takde pon mane2 makcik bekenan :-".. sajeje nak amek hati yuh :-"]

ahha, ni part paling kene kasito. dia nih, pegi mane2 ramai aje yg beminat ek. menyangpah ai :-j. yuhwol tuh, kaki2 ngorat tuh kan, kalo nak ngorat leli nih kan, make sure cukop duit nak bayarkan utang nasi ayam dia kat ai yer. jap, cek buku 555 jap. after diskon, utang dia ade lagi 282 bungkus nasi ayam yer. silekan berusaha. murah je tuh kalo nak banding ngan hantaran kawen siti nurhaliza. :-"

deyyy, lagi yuh nak suruh i tulis pasal ape ek. hihihikk. marilah kite menabor fetnah ke atas leli 8-x. ngehehe. owh korang tau tak leli nih anak bola :-j. ayah dia name abdul rahman wooo. sape tak kenal tuh memang sah kaki bangku ;)). [guek tak kenal ekceli :-j, ntah sape je yg kasito ntah:)), barulah tau siapakah gerangan nya ituh :-j ai mmg kaki bangku pong :-"].
budak ni jgn lah diajak tgk bola, dia kalo set2 bola tuh mcm nak masok gol, tapi, tak masok pon nyer, dia dah bediri sorang2. buat malu je bawak pegi tgk bola nih. adik ai siap tutup muke tahan malu. 8-x.

owh, mengkenai status dia yeh? silelah tanye empunya diri :-", saye tidak mahu terlibat mahupon menjadik middleman yeah. sekian, time kaseyyyyy~

currently listening to: lifehouse - you and me
currently drowning. in my liquid tears.

to the hand i once hold..

++the cameron's trip

yew, i was tempted to go to cameron after my mom's.
so, then, we went to cameron yesterday, all my troubles seem so far away.. bwahahaha. suplyduply-frantasticos-journey, tengs to oa yg tenlah bersunggoh2 bangun awal guring nasi guring and nagets and sosejos, dan kemudiannye nasi guring telah tembalik di dalam boot kereta semase kami memlanggar-lari sebuah bumper di d4mansara perdana. yay! fragalistic sunggoh. kami memang hebbats.
ucapan tengs juwe kipada hencik zul yg paling driver [read: paling lame jadi driver compared to others] dan tenglah bermurah hatinurani membawe kami yg berasal dari kampungan ini berjalan2 di proton-city. dan tengs hencik toyonce kerna mengbantukuh berurut kelapa kerna nak montah yg sahngat loya diatas perjalanan beronak dan berliku itew. tengs juwer kerna bersusahpayah mentukar tayar kereta pancit kuh pagi tadi didalam keadaan mamai dan busuk sekali kamu.

alhamdulillah. looking forward for another low-cost-trip like this lah.

until then, selamat menghiasi wiken dengan petikan lagu nyanyian ina-mawi inih :)))))))))))))) [lagu adalah ehsan Laily yg peminat ina :))] [sebab dia pagi2 tadi telah besungoh2 suruh ai tgk vclip part-11 inih :-"]


currently listening to: atiek - aku sayang padamu
currently feeling tired dan malas bekerjaan